My Bunny!!!
So... I finally talked to Ben. What I found out was the farthest from what I had thought. His exgirlfriend is absolutely psycho. He is completely a mess and depressed. I just balled my eyes out and forgot about hating him and told him how much I love him. Why? Because it is the truth. The entire time I was with Josh I was thinking of Ben... I was never in love with Josh it was just redirection of my love for Ben. In the 2 months its been since he and I talked my feelings never went away, I just found things to take my mind off of it for short moments. He is there I am here, this is the hand that life has delt us. Maybe one day it will be different.
But...
I had a date with Doug. He is amazing and intelligent and hilarious. He is boyfriend material, but Ben coming back has put a kink in that. *sigh* He was such a gentleman. It was one of the best dates I have ever been on. I like him so much. I am so confused now though.
But...
I had a date with Doug. He is amazing and intelligent and hilarious. He is boyfriend material, but Ben coming back has put a kink in that. *sigh* He was such a gentleman. It was one of the best dates I have ever been on. I like him so much. I am so confused now though.