Epic Enterance, Pronounced Presence

[bloodlustcurse]

It's not that I want to cause a scene of confrentation, or some horrific momement in people. It's just when I make a move, it is known, it's important, meaningful, suggnificant. I want this to be reflected in the intensity of the effect felt by everyone, rather at my destination, or those who see me make my way. I want it to be epic, that people know something is comming, something real, something from my heart. My movement, I want it to influence those around me, to take action, to move, to fidget in there seats not from agitation, but from a sence of urgency. I think I want them to become impatient while this feeling builds while they wait from me to get there, wait for me to give my news, for me to speak. That's it! I want my words to be wanted, to be asked for, for it to be so suggnificant and profound that it is needed.
Kami! Teach me how to express this kind of wisdom and patience, I am flawed, I am weak in my resolve, let me learn the lesson. Beat me, MORE! so that it is ingrained into me, so I don't forget it. But let it be a direct lesson, none of this cryptic grace waste of time. I want to be in your classroom, please teach me. I want to be hands on, but please, let me get it, don't teach me lessons that will go unlearned, unheard, or not understood. I don't want to wait, I want to get it and grow now. Start me again, in the pre-schooling of the world, of life, if you need to. Help me, I'm alive... My heart is beating like a hammer for more.