... before you go to far and fall too deep
It's best, if you are going to at all, to break through the ice as early as possible, that was it prevets you from going into the deep end where it would be impossible to pull yourself out. Though, I think this time, like a lot of times, I didn't take my own advice. I have taken a leave from the the group I had been invloved with.
The DVC, a vampire meet-up group, I have been a part of for close to six months, I had to leave becuase I had fallen through again, and I was soo far out I didn't even realize I was on the ice. It really is effecting me more than I thought it could, and now I have to pull myself out... damn.
I have help, friends and family are making it well for me not being alone. At any time of the day, I can step outside my room and around the house to find someone. If not, a voice is always a phone call away. They know I appreciate it, and I love them for it, and I know they love me because they are doing this for me, making sure I'm not alone, I can honestly say that I can't trust myself this time. I will be at work as little as possible, and sleep much, but the waking hours do weigh very heavily on me, but I need to get out somehow.
I am asking some regular totem event commers to take over for me this time, I am going to actually sit the April totem out so that I don't disrupt the cul_"menation" of energy of the event.
This feels like its going to last a while, even though time stands still...
The DVC, a vampire meet-up group, I have been a part of for close to six months, I had to leave becuase I had fallen through again, and I was soo far out I didn't even realize I was on the ice. It really is effecting me more than I thought it could, and now I have to pull myself out... damn.
I have help, friends and family are making it well for me not being alone. At any time of the day, I can step outside my room and around the house to find someone. If not, a voice is always a phone call away. They know I appreciate it, and I love them for it, and I know they love me because they are doing this for me, making sure I'm not alone, I can honestly say that I can't trust myself this time. I will be at work as little as possible, and sleep much, but the waking hours do weigh very heavily on me, but I need to get out somehow.
I am asking some regular totem event commers to take over for me this time, I am going to actually sit the April totem out so that I don't disrupt the cul_"menation" of energy of the event.
This feels like its going to last a while, even though time stands still...