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bloodhalo

a higher level of love

Jul 05, 2003 02:49

Past loves, friends, and rivals have become just that. Memories imprinted on my mind, not to haunt me anymore. There are a few though that have effected me more and I cannot forget them. They are more than memories, but with faces fixed onto them. But I have finally separated those memories from my present day life. I can let them effect me no ( Read more... )

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draco_insygnus July 5 2003, 09:12:26 UTC

"Today I fell into a sudden unexplainable sadness again that lasted for quite a few hours."

---You have refills, and I offered to drive you down so you could get them filled. You didn't and this is what happens. You have bipolar like I do. I tried to explain it to you, but I guess you want to deal with it on your own. Good idea. This will keep happening if you don't get back on the pills. You wanted help, and my mom offered it to you. You have only yourself to blame right now. Don't say you want help then complain when stuff like this happens. It hurts me cause I offered to help, and you declined. This is no longer my problem cause you shut me out of your life.

ashtrayboy July 5 2003, 16:38:56 UTC

i dont even know where to begin..........it hurts you becuse you ofered help....how self absorbed.......you know this post is going to hurt her and piss her off.........wait? i thought you didnt care.....if you dont then why does it hurt?...........stop this sharade........your only hurting your self in the end......!!!

if its no longer your problem then why are you posting

draco_insygnus July 5 2003, 21:45:31 UTC

Fine Jon. You want me to stop caring. Would that be easier for you? For me to just not care? Here's a question. You once asked me what love was, and we were talking about her. You told me that I really didn't know what love was. Now why do you love her? Answer me that Jon. Who got attached to whom now? Why do you love her. I want it in writing. I want to the constent proof as to why. I still care about her. You think my post will hurt her. Sure let it. Let her take like she wants. I told her how I feel, and how many people feel. Even my mom feels like it. Do you really know what's going on with her. Did you really know what was going on with Anna. Maybe if you listened to her more, you might understand. Yeah it pisses Jen off cause it's something people don't tell her...The truth.

ON FIRE!!!!!!!!! ashtrayboy July 5 2003, 22:50:39 UTC

if my resons for being in love with jen are proof in writing as to how you feel then you never loved her nor do you understand love......... you also wouldnt continuly hurt her as you have been................. when will you stop....... you say i dont listen to jen well if that was the case then this wouldnt be hapening............... you are the one who doesnt listen........
by the way jen loves me too......... did she say the same for you......... and in the same way............. carful when awnsering becuse i know the truth

now as for anna............ i new what was going on.........
thats why i left her........... she will never know nor will i tell her................. it is not for her to understand my actions........... i did what i felt was best

ps..... (take this how ever you want)
DONT YOU EVER BRING UP ME AND ANNAS RELATION SHIP WITH ME AGAIN
IT IS NOT FOR YOU TO QUESTION YOU KNOW SHIT DONT EVER BRING HER
UP AGAINST ME AGAIN E V E R DO YOU UNDERSTAND
I AM DEAD SERIOUS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Re: ON FIRE!!!!!!!!! draco_insygnus July 5 2003, 23:32:43 UTC

Blah Blah Blah. That didn't tell me what love is. I mean someone must tell me what love is cause I obviously don't know. I loved her like a dear friend. I told her that. Also she said that I never really listened to her, and we got together. Take that as you will. I would also like to add that do you really know the truth. Jen told me she loved me too. I'm saying it was true love. She told me that she loved me for the same reasons I loved her. In the way you put it she in fact really loves you beyond the frienship bounds. I could be wrong. She stopped loving me. She stopped saying it two weeks before the break up. She stopped showing it like she said I did, so I didn't love her and niether did she cause none of us showed it, but I don't know what love is, so I never loved her, and how am I supposed to know that she or anybody ever loved me cause I don't know what love is right?

Also I'm going to take the last thing you said as a warning. You know what warnings are to me Jon? I think I told you already.

Re: ON FIRE!!!!!!!!! ashtrayboy July 5 2003, 23:45:53 UTC

youre stubern......now you can say it in every post.... a warning means if you do something to me i will defend my self.......a threat is when you just do it......the warnig turns into a threat by youre actions not mine

Re: ON FIRE!!!!!!!!! draco_insygnus July 6 2003, 00:01:01 UTC

A threat is something that will inflict harm, or pain, or a form of evil. You tell me that if I do something then you will do something. That is a threat cause I never told you that I will do anything. You just said that you will enact harm, pain, or evil upon me, when I haven't said that I would do anything to you yet. You said that I would, and I haven't said anything. You are warning me not to do anything that I haven't said anything about.

Re: ON FIRE!!!!!!!!! ashtrayboy July 7 2003, 00:53:34 UTC

its how i view it and will treat it.........
please stop

Re: ON FIRE!!!!!!!!! draco_insygnus July 7 2003, 01:32:16 UTC

Wow! did you just prove my point. It's how you view it? Well then. It's how viewed it too? You threatened me first, and I threatened you first. How about we both pulled the guns out at the sametime. This arguement will not end. We both did it at the sametime.

Re: ON FIRE!!!!!!!!! bloodhalo July 6 2003, 01:01:34 UTC

WHy do you want him to give you proof in writing? Why do you want him to tell you what he thinks love is? So you can compete? Cause when he said he listened to me.. I heard time and time again how you listened to me.. when i spoke, when i slept, when i didnt say anything, etc ---pretty much everything he was saying. Stop fucking competing. Theres nothing to compete for. Like I said, so we didnt work out in a relationship, and we wont, so you shouldnt try to ruin my current one. Youre seeming to try and mess things up between us but its not going to work. You seem to like hurting us, and arguing with us, but mostly getting a rise out of us. And you like to think you know more about me than he does, you cared about me more than he does, etc etc ( ... )

Re: ON FIRE!!!!!!!!! draco_insygnus July 6 2003, 01:27:51 UTC

Why is that you told me so much of that before? Oh wait cause you did. Also that whole bit of me and how I listened to you while all of those things. I said it first. If he said it before I did he didn't tell me. Or maybe he just did it after I did. If he said it before I did then great minds think alike I guess. I don't know, or do I care who said it first in this case. Do you really think I'm tryin to ruin your relationship? I'm not. You lost a friend to keep what you have. I'm just saying that if it ends, and not when it ends, and that I'm going to end it. If you are together for two months to two years and it ends then you lost him and me, or maybe you two will stay friends. I don't care. I'm just saying that you left me to stay friends. By doing that you pushed for friendship not me. Also why is it that when I say something that is true you say "Fuck you?" Truth hurts doesn't it? You want to just live some sheltered life without truth? Whenever I would start to say something that was along the true lines you would tell me to stop ( ... )

so annoyed by this bloodhalo July 6 2003, 19:52:15 UTC

I didnt lose a friend to keep what I have, I lost a friend cause my friend was being a jackass. And still is ( ... )

Part 1 of 3 draco_insygnus July 7 2003, 00:41:59 UTC

---This is just part one of three. It was two long, so I cut it into three parts ( ... )

Part 2 of 3 draco_insygnus July 7 2003, 00:43:13 UTC

---Part 2. This one is shorter ( ... )

Part 3 of 3 draco_insygnus July 7 2003, 00:44:15 UTC

---Part 3 of 3. About as long as the first ( ... )

Re: Part 3 of 3 bloodhalo July 9 2003, 08:15:04 UTC

Once again I have so many things to say to this, so so many but Im getting very tired of it all. And I dont have the patience to do so right now. There are two things I will say however ( ... )

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