BLAH
I recently have been thinking alot about myself and about life.
A few months ago, even weeks and days ago....I didn't even care anymore. I didn't care about life at all.
Everything was going wrong and I ddin't even want to help myself- or make things better, which is the total opposite of who I really am!
I strive to be happy and help others, it's in my caring nature.
SO digging deep inside of myself---I realized that I AM THE ONLY ONE, who knows the answer to my depression and sadness. I hold the key to my future and to the NOW, that is going on!
I realized living in the past and in the future is no good. But to live in the NOW is what we all should live for.
So I STOPPED worrying about what will happen next, or what has happened---for when I do that- I lose track of my life.
IM FINALLY LIVING IN THE NOW. IN THIS DAY---WHATEVER IS THROWN AT ME, I WILL DEAL WITH IT HERE AND NOW, NOT THEN NOT LATER.
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tODAY WAS A GOOD DAY----i went to church and finally tuned into everything that was said- and I understood.
Recently I was hired to teach 7th grade in out PSR classes (Parish School of Religion) for St. Elizabeth's where I attend mass. Ofcourse I know this is going to be a challenege---but I AM SO READY FOR IT---and I need it! I do believe I can DO IT and do it soo WELL!
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HAHA my parents came home today with a BRAND NEW 2005 FORD WINSTAR IN CHEERY RED
This VAN is sooooooooo BEAUTIFUL! juts let me tell you!
And my mom sooo DESERVES this. She has been through so much with this cancer just thrown upon her!
She goes to the doctor in a week, I am hoping and praying for the best outcome!
My mom is soo strong, she is my best friend....and without her I would be lost for a while!
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My dad and I ARE improving. FINALLY! after 16 years.....
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After my last relationship, I was so overwhelmed and stressed. I felt like my world had crashed. I was soo in love, and he cheated on me! who does that?
I thought I would never find n e one else....who could mend my broken heart....
....I had gone on many dates, with many different ppl. but no one interested me.
Its like, if they cant get my attention in the first 30 minutes---the rest of the date sucks---because I KNOW we won't work. I know that sounds odd, but I can sense when something is right!
So, I met a guy named MIKE! and although he seems to be the complete opposite of what I would ever consider to be boyfriend material----he caught my attention like no body else. we talk for hours. and I never get bored of him. We can be dorks around eachother and laugh about the stupidest things---and its GREAT!
I hope this works.......I need this kind of relationship in my life right now! Where I can just be me!
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After I had a miscarriage, I was so dead inside. I felt empty and lost...but somehow he has replaced that part of me----he has filled me with gidiness and bubliness. I get butterflies, and feel like im on the right track!
THANK YOU LORD!
I guess thats about it! I got it all out---and I feel so much better!
<3 Clarissa
A few months ago, even weeks and days ago....I didn't even care anymore. I didn't care about life at all.
Everything was going wrong and I ddin't even want to help myself- or make things better, which is the total opposite of who I really am!
I strive to be happy and help others, it's in my caring nature.
SO digging deep inside of myself---I realized that I AM THE ONLY ONE, who knows the answer to my depression and sadness. I hold the key to my future and to the NOW, that is going on!
I realized living in the past and in the future is no good. But to live in the NOW is what we all should live for.
So I STOPPED worrying about what will happen next, or what has happened---for when I do that- I lose track of my life.
IM FINALLY LIVING IN THE NOW. IN THIS DAY---WHATEVER IS THROWN AT ME, I WILL DEAL WITH IT HERE AND NOW, NOT THEN NOT LATER.
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tODAY WAS A GOOD DAY----i went to church and finally tuned into everything that was said- and I understood.
Recently I was hired to teach 7th grade in out PSR classes (Parish School of Religion) for St. Elizabeth's where I attend mass. Ofcourse I know this is going to be a challenege---but I AM SO READY FOR IT---and I need it! I do believe I can DO IT and do it soo WELL!
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HAHA my parents came home today with a BRAND NEW 2005 FORD WINSTAR IN CHEERY RED
This VAN is sooooooooo BEAUTIFUL! juts let me tell you!
And my mom sooo DESERVES this. She has been through so much with this cancer just thrown upon her!
She goes to the doctor in a week, I am hoping and praying for the best outcome!
My mom is soo strong, she is my best friend....and without her I would be lost for a while!
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My dad and I ARE improving. FINALLY! after 16 years.....
_________________________________________
After my last relationship, I was so overwhelmed and stressed. I felt like my world had crashed. I was soo in love, and he cheated on me! who does that?
I thought I would never find n e one else....who could mend my broken heart....
....I had gone on many dates, with many different ppl. but no one interested me.
Its like, if they cant get my attention in the first 30 minutes---the rest of the date sucks---because I KNOW we won't work. I know that sounds odd, but I can sense when something is right!
So, I met a guy named MIKE! and although he seems to be the complete opposite of what I would ever consider to be boyfriend material----he caught my attention like no body else. we talk for hours. and I never get bored of him. We can be dorks around eachother and laugh about the stupidest things---and its GREAT!
I hope this works.......I need this kind of relationship in my life right now! Where I can just be me!
_______________________________________
After I had a miscarriage, I was so dead inside. I felt empty and lost...but somehow he has replaced that part of me----he has filled me with gidiness and bubliness. I get butterflies, and feel like im on the right track!
THANK YOU LORD!
I guess thats about it! I got it all out---and I feel so much better!
<3 Clarissa