sex whine

[bloodbeauty]

bleh, thought it was too good to be true
the horniness is back and wont go away
i've had almost two weeks of "normal"
i mean, i get mildly horny, masturbate, and it goes away
(no i don't come, occasionally small bumps but meh, it still feels good)
now i'm bact to how i usually am, rabidly horny and nothing seems to take the edge off
been reading erotica and masturbating for most of the day
i just want it to go away
i don't even enjoy it half as much when i'm like this
i wouldn't mind half as much if someone got pleasure from knowing i was constantly aroused...
if someone was forcing me into this it would make everything easier...
bah, if i can't be normal and cuddle and kiss without being left damp and dissapointed then i want to be sub, uber sub.
i want people to be cruel and punish me for being so eager for it.
i want to be used to do dirty kinky things.
i want to be fucked till i'm sore, till i'm begging them to stop and for them to ignore me because i'm a sub and my opinion doesn't matter.
i want to be gagged and bound and used
used by anyone who wants to, for anything they want
roomfulls of strangers doing things just because they can...

this is all jenn's fault...she turned me on again