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[bloodbeauty]

bleh
feeling far too emotional
crying when sweet/nice things happen
geh, i want cuddles
i want to be curled up on the sofa with jenn with a mug of hot chocolate and know she's thinking about me, just me, if only for a little while
i'm feeling ridiculously selfish at the moment

and sad, not about anything in paticular, just my mood is a couple of notches below normal, no where near as low as it was yesterday though

i've been very emotional, probably because i forgot to take my pills
but i've taken them now
not that they should affect mood, but i'm so psycosomatic

and i'm not horny, but i'm turned on, which feels strange
but i'm too tired emotional and just worn out to do anything about it

i've had the buff musical episode on repeat all day
it's a new obsession

one of these days i'll find an obsession that's healthy

also, jenn said i could ger a sword when she gets her crossbow (more specificalyy a katana)

^____________________^
yay for sharp shiney things

and then i shall hack and maim and destroy and cause pain and bloodshed

i have a mental image of me standing in a field surrounded by the bodies of my enemies
i was wearing white, but you can't tell because of the amount of blood

it makes me feel amazingly calm