in the end does it at all matter
does any of this really matter? i wonder.... why do i have to go to school? why can't i travel, take things at my own pace? i would love that. i want to see so many things, but i have to go to highschool, then college, and then get a job. maybe i want to write. i am smart, so what? does that mean i have to be a proffessor, maybe i want to be a bum. not a bum, but i don't want that shit, i want to live my life. i should just go find some random people to live with. i see how unhappy everyone is, i don't want to be like that, if i am working it is going to be for me, i am going to be happy and i am not conforming to anyone's ideals. i am me take it or leave it. i also want a black kitty and a grey kitty. i have grown a lot. i mean i totally obliterated my social life, but i guess it is worth it in order to find myself. i don't want to be in this catatonic state. yes do have issues to deal with, but who doesn't? douche!!! i have history homework and a paper for english to write but, i will do it. i want to do well the rest of the year and just relax the summer. i did well this year on christmas. i am proud of me, it is a hard time for me, like so many others, but i dealt with it and i am still alive. i can do it!!!! bye