job update
so i started at crenlo like two weeks ago... its been... oh gosh.. its been rough. its the most physical ive worked in like.. ever. it was 10 hours a day of serious work-lifting, moving, bending, kneeling- the whole time. it wasnt happy.. it was very hard.. my whole body hurt. i talked to my supervisor throughout and let him know that i was having a hard time physically and i couldnt keep up with the line. so yesterday he switfched me to a different area.. which is better. not so fast paced .. everything i lift is a little lighter.. yeah... its better. hopefully i can handle it.. ive also been seriously depressed.. all last week i was having panic attacks like.. at least once a day.. so i talked to my doctor.. finally got meds... yup.. so thats a thing. a very overdue thing as all of you know... so hopefully this new station im at and the meds... hopefully i can make it through.. people keep telling me this job will get easier... which it is a bit.. but its going to keep getting hotter.. ugh.. well.. thats me. i would love to hear from you guys.. i know non of us are super good at long distance .. but its lonely.. living on my own and working 6 days a week... idk i feel like im missing out on a summer and time for myself... which of course feeds into the deperession. anyways.. yeah. how are all of you?