self-loather
What can I say? I am in no way content with my life right now. Yet I'm finding it hard to make a change. Maybe I've become a slacker. Maybe I'm all too focused on the negative. I think I've allowed myself to become all too consumed with a relationship that deservedly needs a break. I'm kind of scared. I'm a bit excited. I need a break from life - just for a minute. Will someone go to work in place of me for awhile? Feed, love and sleep with my cats. Pay bills, fill up the car with gas, deal with bandmates. Talk to and be a friend to my mom on a daily basis. Talk to a certain girl and ask yourself, "WHY?".....
Of course things could always be much worse than they are, but no matter what sort of lifestyle or situation you are in, the feeling of being completely lost is a very helpless one. While I've never felt so much like an ant in my entire life, I can honestly say that I have got some really great people that care about me, and it's those friends and family that help me keep my chin up. Much love to those.
And mondo love to my little brother, who's marriage in 2 weeks from today has rewarded me and my family a well-deserved week vacation in Clearwater, Florida to watch him tie the knot on the beach at sunset. The idea of finally driving to Florida for the first time with a friend, NOT being in Michigan, NOT working for my whack bosses, NOT worrying about anything, hanging out with dolphins, chilling with my family - this is what makes me want to smile.
Things will get better.
ps. thanks for the great weekend my friends
Of course things could always be much worse than they are, but no matter what sort of lifestyle or situation you are in, the feeling of being completely lost is a very helpless one. While I've never felt so much like an ant in my entire life, I can honestly say that I have got some really great people that care about me, and it's those friends and family that help me keep my chin up. Much love to those.
And mondo love to my little brother, who's marriage in 2 weeks from today has rewarded me and my family a well-deserved week vacation in Clearwater, Florida to watch him tie the knot on the beach at sunset. The idea of finally driving to Florida for the first time with a friend, NOT being in Michigan, NOT working for my whack bosses, NOT worrying about anything, hanging out with dolphins, chilling with my family - this is what makes me want to smile.
Things will get better.
ps. thanks for the great weekend my friends