So, life.
When I started this journal I severely under estimated the amount of time the rest of my life would take. Since my last update so much has happened, and so much of it is good. All of it is confusing and everything is still very much in flux at the moment, but, a recap.
After a terrifying and physically abusive incident with her ex, Helen has now seen the light and made amends for how she's been as a result of their relationship. She apologised to Greg, sending him a lovely message and made great efforts since then to include him and be nice. She's met someone new and they're moving in together. It's been very fast, but very lovely and I haven't seen her be really herself in a long time. It's good and all is forgiven.
School wise, and me-wise generally I guess, my priorities are still the same but my immediate goals are not. I have an interview in a couple of weeks for a full time position which has nothing to do with my chosen career but everything to do with my independence. I will always have my gifts and talents, now it's time to make my happiness and independence and life away from my family a super top priority. With my sister being home again home is really starting to feel like somewhere I'd rather not be.
She's amazing, my sister, and I'm very proud of her, but she's so hard to live with. Doing things that come naturally to be provoke either ridicule or anger from her, and there's no reasoning that I'm allowed to do what I like. It's wrong and that's that as far as she's concerned. I won't be moving far cause my mum needs me near for many reasons, but I really can't be in this house much longer.
I want my life with Greg and my freedom to do what I want when I want without being questioned. I mean the simplest thing like making dinner or taking a shower. These things, in a household where everybody is respected as an adult, should not be met with questions like "why are you doing that?" I want my business to remain MY business. It feels childish to be so headstrong about it, but it's also childish to make someone ashamed of something as simple as making dinner, so I'm not sure what a proper response would even be.
Have also rekindled my social life with great success. HURRAY.
I still read your journals, though I would totally understand if you didn't read mine.
After a terrifying and physically abusive incident with her ex, Helen has now seen the light and made amends for how she's been as a result of their relationship. She apologised to Greg, sending him a lovely message and made great efforts since then to include him and be nice. She's met someone new and they're moving in together. It's been very fast, but very lovely and I haven't seen her be really herself in a long time. It's good and all is forgiven.
School wise, and me-wise generally I guess, my priorities are still the same but my immediate goals are not. I have an interview in a couple of weeks for a full time position which has nothing to do with my chosen career but everything to do with my independence. I will always have my gifts and talents, now it's time to make my happiness and independence and life away from my family a super top priority. With my sister being home again home is really starting to feel like somewhere I'd rather not be.
She's amazing, my sister, and I'm very proud of her, but she's so hard to live with. Doing things that come naturally to be provoke either ridicule or anger from her, and there's no reasoning that I'm allowed to do what I like. It's wrong and that's that as far as she's concerned. I won't be moving far cause my mum needs me near for many reasons, but I really can't be in this house much longer.
I want my life with Greg and my freedom to do what I want when I want without being questioned. I mean the simplest thing like making dinner or taking a shower. These things, in a household where everybody is respected as an adult, should not be met with questions like "why are you doing that?" I want my business to remain MY business. It feels childish to be so headstrong about it, but it's also childish to make someone ashamed of something as simple as making dinner, so I'm not sure what a proper response would even be.
Have also rekindled my social life with great success. HURRAY.
I still read your journals, though I would totally understand if you didn't read mine.