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Ok so I realize what time it is.. but I woke up and I just can't get back to sleep, so I thought writing would help. Hmm now I just need something to write about..
Um ok, I guess I'm kinda annoyed about the fact that dating someone in the Navy is hard enough and right now, even when he's not on active duty, I hardly see him. Going through months of not seeing a person you love and not truly understanding what they're going through is miserable. Writing letters just isn't enough. Especially not being able to see them or get a phone call on Christmas and New Years and your birthday. It makes you value hearing that person's voice. I cried if he called me cause it was so rare and it was always too short of a phone call. And although It would make my day when I received a letter in the mail, I would be sad about how short they were. I sent him normal sized pages and wrote front and back, and he had these tiny little pieces of paper and wasn't able to write much. Of course they don't allow them a lot of time to write and he said he even wrote when he wasn't supposed to. So now he is home and I don't even get to see him that much, maybe like 5 or 6 days a month. All cause I had to go to a school that is 3 hours away from him - which isn't that bad, but he still has work and military stuff on the weekends. *sigh* I wish I could go back to high school where I saw him every day. It's funny cause before he signed up for the Navy, I told him that I don't really do long distance relationships, but love makes us do crazy things. At least 7 more years of this, and I think he even wants to sign up for longer. It's frustrating because It's not what I signed up for and he knows how I feel about it. Sometimes I wonder If I can handle it...
Also, I know this is completely random, but I want snow. lol
ok so I'm gonna go back to trying to sleep, cause I don't need to be up early for anything. And even though I have a million things on my mind... I feel like I can't fully share everything cause although I don't care much about what people know about me, I like having some secrets :-P
p.s. I'm not really grumpy - I just thought he looked cute haha
Um ok, I guess I'm kinda annoyed about the fact that dating someone in the Navy is hard enough and right now, even when he's not on active duty, I hardly see him. Going through months of not seeing a person you love and not truly understanding what they're going through is miserable. Writing letters just isn't enough. Especially not being able to see them or get a phone call on Christmas and New Years and your birthday. It makes you value hearing that person's voice. I cried if he called me cause it was so rare and it was always too short of a phone call. And although It would make my day when I received a letter in the mail, I would be sad about how short they were. I sent him normal sized pages and wrote front and back, and he had these tiny little pieces of paper and wasn't able to write much. Of course they don't allow them a lot of time to write and he said he even wrote when he wasn't supposed to. So now he is home and I don't even get to see him that much, maybe like 5 or 6 days a month. All cause I had to go to a school that is 3 hours away from him - which isn't that bad, but he still has work and military stuff on the weekends. *sigh* I wish I could go back to high school where I saw him every day. It's funny cause before he signed up for the Navy, I told him that I don't really do long distance relationships, but love makes us do crazy things. At least 7 more years of this, and I think he even wants to sign up for longer. It's frustrating because It's not what I signed up for and he knows how I feel about it. Sometimes I wonder If I can handle it...
Also, I know this is completely random, but I want snow. lol
ok so I'm gonna go back to trying to sleep, cause I don't need to be up early for anything. And even though I have a million things on my mind... I feel like I can't fully share everything cause although I don't care much about what people know about me, I like having some secrets :-P
p.s. I'm not really grumpy - I just thought he looked cute haha