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i dont know whats wrong with me
im trying so hard to avoid certain topics
recently ive felt so alone
it feels strange to wtach to people who seem to genuinely care for each other. I dont know what is going on, my whole never take anything seriously theory seems to be going crazy. if i was this nuts before lock me up now before i become the next son of sam. everyone seems to love someone these days and me, im still trapped in my egotisitical world of birkenstocks and sylvia plath. i think its the constant reminders of valentines day everywhere and stores being filled of pictures of cupids ass. i am cynical if you can't tell. this usually happens after a bad day that would involve intensive soul searching, but no. today i just feel like being an angry botch. maybe i could pull an alanis morrisette and write an uber angry song like you oughta know. sweet.
sorry about this. i really am. its just a way to vent.
just valentine's day really gets to me. it always has. i mean im happy for everyone i really am, i love seeing my friends in love and absorbed in their happiness. it just sometimes makes me think about why i cant be that happy.
i try to be happy. i am a genuinely happy person, just right now...i dont even know.
i used to never even believe in real love. i thought it was some fanasty used to describe large amounts of dopamine in your system. c'mon people it also causes schizophrenia. but now i dont know. now dont think its because ive fallen in love, cause that seems to be near to impossible.
im sorry once again if anyone actually took time and read that.
im trying so hard to avoid certain topics
recently ive felt so alone
it feels strange to wtach to people who seem to genuinely care for each other. I dont know what is going on, my whole never take anything seriously theory seems to be going crazy. if i was this nuts before lock me up now before i become the next son of sam. everyone seems to love someone these days and me, im still trapped in my egotisitical world of birkenstocks and sylvia plath. i think its the constant reminders of valentines day everywhere and stores being filled of pictures of cupids ass. i am cynical if you can't tell. this usually happens after a bad day that would involve intensive soul searching, but no. today i just feel like being an angry botch. maybe i could pull an alanis morrisette and write an uber angry song like you oughta know. sweet.
sorry about this. i really am. its just a way to vent.
just valentine's day really gets to me. it always has. i mean im happy for everyone i really am, i love seeing my friends in love and absorbed in their happiness. it just sometimes makes me think about why i cant be that happy.
i try to be happy. i am a genuinely happy person, just right now...i dont even know.
i used to never even believe in real love. i thought it was some fanasty used to describe large amounts of dopamine in your system. c'mon people it also causes schizophrenia. but now i dont know. now dont think its because ive fallen in love, cause that seems to be near to impossible.
im sorry once again if anyone actually took time and read that.