Not Too Much...
Yeah so I find myself here at 3:30 something in the morning .... again. I dunno, I guess I like to write in this thing at night when I'm not gonna be bothered and I feel that my head is kinda clear of the day that just passed. Or its just that I think about that fucking dumb asshole at night, you know, that guy that "loved me so much" while he's stuffing that whore with his prick. So yeah, that shit doesn't put me to bed very well. I hope she LOVES the fact that my name is all over his body. I hope she bitches about it all the time. UGH I reallyyy don't wanna think about that shit right now. Anyways ... Umm Saturday is gonna be fun. King Richards Fair, hope the shit is good! I'm not paying which is gonna be nice. I love not paying money for shit. Friday, I dunno whats going on though. Drinking at Jeffs? Who knows but thats probably whats gonna happen. Derek wants to go and see The Departed, but I honestly don't wanna go to the movies. Maybe I can talk him out of it. He'll listen to me, even though he's mad stubborn, he LOVES his sleep. Hahaha and I LOVE to keep him awake. Dude, I'm so tired right now. And I'm broke. Tuesdays at Marks Showplace .. I've become a regular. Waist my damn money on strippers, what am I thinking? Oh well, few of em are actually hot. I fell that its about time to do something with myself. Fuckhole isn't coming back, I get it now. So I gotta fucking do somethinggg. I wanna go through all them fuckin boxes and throw all his crap out and keep all the shit I want to keep so when I move back out I won't be fearing opening the boxes and pulling out a shit ton of memories of my past life, that would suckk. So I wanna do that before winter comes, so pretty damn soon actually. First thing I HAVE to do is look for another fuckin job, I'll ask Pauline for some more hours but I highly highly doubt that shes gonna give me any hours cuz she bitches at me all the time cuz I don't do anything. So its time for something new. Its so hard to motivate myself, adam always used to do that, but its all me now. BLAH, I CAN do this shit all on my own. I don't need anyone. Well, I dunno what else to say ... so imma head to beddy bye all by my damn self. Check yall out later!!! []Deace Out Loserss