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[blonde_of_doom]

I have been feeling very happy about life lately. I'm doing a great job of making 2009 a year all about me. It's selfish, I know, but I really need to focus on what is going to make me happy and go for it. Sometimes life slows down and clicks into place and things can be good for awhile. I'm happy with art and I'm happy that boots FINALLY has an appointment to get fixed and I'm happy that all the residents at my job are the nicest people ever. I'm really excited for my future, because I'm finally at a point in my life where I realize I have one. This time two years ago I almost lost everything. It's hard to imagine feeling so sad and alone and hurt that I had to write a suicide note. I came so close to the edge and I feel like ever since then it has been a remarkable climb to get back up to steady ground. The last two and a half years of my life has changed more inside of me than I could ever picture changing. Every class, every friendship and relationship formed and every mistake and bad luck and broken hearts have just slowly carved a new life before my eyes.

And right now, I'm happy being Claire. I'm happy on working to BE Claire. I'm pretty sure I'm finally turning into someone I can stand to be around.

Take every warm feeling and cherish it. Warm is good.