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the summers end is nearing, which means school starts for many. except me. this is the beginning of the distance that is to come of many friends, and loss of contact. i'm dreading each moment that passes by 'til it happens. bam. over with.
i feel like im being punished for something. not that i want everything to go my way, but i've dealt with a lot of problems over the summer. losing connection with someone who your heart doesnt want to let go of but you know you have too, going through a relationship? if that's what i would even call it, then it ending suddenly out of the blue because of certain reasons. i feel like no matter where i go, i'm taking one step forward and two back.
jill's gone to toronto now, we still talk. but i miss calling her and asking to hang out, especially on sundays. making a trip up to see her in november when legal age hits, i'll walk if i have.
i just feel like i have a cloud hanging over my head a lot lately, and shouldnt feel this way, but nothing seems to help it go away. nothing.
im out, work tomorrow. update later.
i feel like im being punished for something. not that i want everything to go my way, but i've dealt with a lot of problems over the summer. losing connection with someone who your heart doesnt want to let go of but you know you have too, going through a relationship? if that's what i would even call it, then it ending suddenly out of the blue because of certain reasons. i feel like no matter where i go, i'm taking one step forward and two back.
jill's gone to toronto now, we still talk. but i miss calling her and asking to hang out, especially on sundays. making a trip up to see her in november when legal age hits, i'll walk if i have.
i just feel like i have a cloud hanging over my head a lot lately, and shouldnt feel this way, but nothing seems to help it go away. nothing.
im out, work tomorrow. update later.