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So I called Leslie on her shit when she refused to be touched at all, she says she just doesn't want to be touched when she's late, or stressed, or upset etc. But that's pretty much all the time. What's she so ashamed of? She'll hug and hold hands in private but as soon as we're in the public world, she's completely separated. I don't understand. Now she isn't returning any of my texts and when she came by she was totally distant and uninterested. It scares the fuck out of me. Is she doing this, "I don't know if I have feelings" thing again? I love this woman but she treats me like shit sometimes. I hope it's just that lastnight she was running on a couple of hours of sleep, had driven to/from portland and run around all day with her friend Kristi who just came into town. Really really hope that's it. Maybe us being apart for a few days will be good for us. We have spent every waking moment together it seems, which, while lovely gets a little tiresome. Even I was wanting to go back home after 4 days at her house but then she asked if I wanted to go to the lab, stay together etc that night. I just don't know what is up with her. Maybe PMS? She should be starting her period soon (I HOPE!), maybe that's all this is? I just don't know what to do differently, I've really backed off from being such a jealous dick. I don't text her every five minutes, I thought I was getting better about not being so constantly touchy. I think when I see her stressed out, the best thing I can think of to fix it is to hold her hand, offer my support, etc. but she never wants it. It's just a habit I'm having one hell of a time breaking.