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my dear friend at work, catherine, has been upset lately because one of HER dear friends has been sick with cancer. dying, in the hospice. on the weekend, catherine was told that her friend only had a few days left to live.
kelli has also been struggling through, watching her nan slowly fade away. dementia & an assortment of ailments that slowly bring the body to a stop. kelli told me her nan passed away on tuesday night. she was okay about it tho - her nan is at peace now & can join her grandpa.
i was telling jed about catherine's friend the other night. wednesday night i think. i cried a bit because her friend is alone. no family, grew up as an orphan in ireland. was abused by the clergy, received a substantial pay out later on down the track. moved to australia. no children, no family. i cried because the idea of dying completely and utterly alone is, i think, a deep fear that many people have.
however, she may not have had family, but her friends... what amazing friends.
when i saw cath on thursday she revealed to me that her friend had passed away @ 5pm wednesday afternoon ... and that she was there when it happened.
what a powerful thing.
i reflected on how sad it is to be alone, but catherine was very positive about it, because about 5 of this woman's friends were there with her. they sang & played music & held hands and then she passed away. i felt uplifted and a bit joyous that even if we are left alone and abandoned by family, we can still make choices that have us surrounded by wonderful people.
i remember hearing that once - surround yourself with beautiful people. that way, you can be beautiful too.
at the same time, it is difficult because through our very nature we can easily alienate people. get caught up in ridiculous things and lose friends.
i've made choices to cut people out of my life because they have been toxic. my group of friends here are DEEP... warm people who i know would do just about anything for me. i don't have many & unfortunately they come from all walks of life so don't really cross paths, so i can't say i have A LOT of friends.
perhaps the success of tv shows like Sex And The City and Friends isn't just about the comedy & content, but the way they portray such close relationships with people. idk.
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jed said something funny to me the other day.
he revealed that Rhiannon had called him up to ask if he was planning to propose at my 30th birthday.
when he told me this, i laughed & basically said i did NOT want to know any more.
then he said that he thought a birthday should be about ME & maybe something i would not want to share. so i said, that actually i thought it would be a terrific idea because "hey presto" our friends would all be together there anyway, what better way to share than with them???
he was like, "oh..."
anyway, he said that rhi had taken it upon herself to call. etc etc. i laughed. just like rhiannon to jump the gun.
...
later on i had a cry because thinking about marriage & parties made me think about how my mum wouldn't be there to help me get ready or dressed or advise me in any way.
how do children work it out without their parents?
kelli has also been struggling through, watching her nan slowly fade away. dementia & an assortment of ailments that slowly bring the body to a stop. kelli told me her nan passed away on tuesday night. she was okay about it tho - her nan is at peace now & can join her grandpa.
i was telling jed about catherine's friend the other night. wednesday night i think. i cried a bit because her friend is alone. no family, grew up as an orphan in ireland. was abused by the clergy, received a substantial pay out later on down the track. moved to australia. no children, no family. i cried because the idea of dying completely and utterly alone is, i think, a deep fear that many people have.
however, she may not have had family, but her friends... what amazing friends.
when i saw cath on thursday she revealed to me that her friend had passed away @ 5pm wednesday afternoon ... and that she was there when it happened.
what a powerful thing.
i reflected on how sad it is to be alone, but catherine was very positive about it, because about 5 of this woman's friends were there with her. they sang & played music & held hands and then she passed away. i felt uplifted and a bit joyous that even if we are left alone and abandoned by family, we can still make choices that have us surrounded by wonderful people.
i remember hearing that once - surround yourself with beautiful people. that way, you can be beautiful too.
at the same time, it is difficult because through our very nature we can easily alienate people. get caught up in ridiculous things and lose friends.
i've made choices to cut people out of my life because they have been toxic. my group of friends here are DEEP... warm people who i know would do just about anything for me. i don't have many & unfortunately they come from all walks of life so don't really cross paths, so i can't say i have A LOT of friends.
perhaps the success of tv shows like Sex And The City and Friends isn't just about the comedy & content, but the way they portray such close relationships with people. idk.
...
jed said something funny to me the other day.
he revealed that Rhiannon had called him up to ask if he was planning to propose at my 30th birthday.
when he told me this, i laughed & basically said i did NOT want to know any more.
then he said that he thought a birthday should be about ME & maybe something i would not want to share. so i said, that actually i thought it would be a terrific idea because "hey presto" our friends would all be together there anyway, what better way to share than with them???
he was like, "oh..."
anyway, he said that rhi had taken it upon herself to call. etc etc. i laughed. just like rhiannon to jump the gun.
...
later on i had a cry because thinking about marriage & parties made me think about how my mum wouldn't be there to help me get ready or dressed or advise me in any way.
how do children work it out without their parents?