you're exactly right. this trip with beejay has been very exhausting and now i realise i don't really want to be exhausted emotionally by my horse. i've had to rewrite my goals with him, which is okay in the short term, but i don't want to be slogging through it daily with him for the rest of my life. and it's not like he's a bad or dirty or naughty horse, he just needs the right type of person to bring out the best in him.
i wasn't really worried about the money - just that i spent good money to buy a 'good' horse. and i had it in my head that i had to get a gorgeous, big scopey creature & to do that i had to spend some good money (i got a small personal loan for it, actually) & i worried that because i wouldn't be able to get my money BACK on beejay, i would never have that money again to buy another nice, big gorgeous horse.
so along comes taz, who i wasn't even looking for, who just happens to be extremely gorgeous but in a small, standardbred package. and because of the standardbred fact, he's cheap.
and nice.
but obviously not educated or scopey or floaty, which beejy is...
but i've realised i just don't really care about that anymore. taz isn't going to win Hack of the Year, but he's already proven himself to be an absolute dude.
and maybe beej will have the chance to win great prizes with his new rider.
i wasn't really worried about the money - just that i spent good money to buy a 'good' horse. and i had it in my head that i had to get a gorgeous, big scopey creature & to do that i had to spend some good money (i got a small personal loan for it, actually) & i worried that because i wouldn't be able to get my money BACK on beejay, i would never have that money again to buy another nice, big gorgeous horse.
so along comes taz, who i wasn't even looking for, who just happens to be extremely gorgeous but in a small, standardbred package. and because of the standardbred fact, he's cheap.
and nice.
but obviously not educated or scopey or floaty, which beejy is...
but i've realised i just don't really care about that anymore. taz isn't going to win Hack of the Year, but he's already proven himself to be an absolute dude.
and maybe beej will have the chance to win great prizes with his new rider.
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