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i think i must have told about 4 people today that "i think i'm going to sell him".
him, being beejay.
think, being not quite sure, but prob about 95% sure.
sell, as in - do what i can to find him the best possible home, keep riding, keep him in work, maybe get stacey to campaign him a bit as a jumper and you know...
...just not have him in my life anymore...
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we tried and failed to get him on the float to go to adult riders today. he would visit beejyland pretty much as soon as he turned to face the float. he would sometimes get about 3/4 of the way on, and his energy would be DOWN and he'd be quiet, and then he'd just explode out of nowhere, and zoom backwards, wacking his head backwards hard rhythmically (this is a new development - another evasion tactic) to rip the rope out of my hands.
obviously in the time i've had him i've spent MANY an hour of my life trying to get him on and today i just had enough after about 50mins. besides, kelli had to go as well & our lesson was meant to be at 11. so i just chucked him back in the paddock, took kelli & ben & had a grand old time horseless, gossiping with friends & doing fuck all.
in the time it took me to dump him back in the paddock & walk back to the car & get kelli loaded up to go to ARC, i'd pretty much decided. maybe it's just a gut reaction, but i'm pretty sure.
i do understand that he had a traumatic experience in the float last week... but it's not as if failing to load on the float is a NEW thing. it's not as if running through me is a NEW thing, or shying or bolting or being in general, quite difficult for ME (and i don't give a fuck about how he is for anyone else, he's MY horse) to get along with is a new development at all. you guys know that.
i used to be fearful of selling him because i felt that i'd spent all that money on him and there'd be no way i'd ever get it back & subsequently would never be able to buy a nice horse ever again...
but now i have taz & i know that $500 CAN buy a nice horse, so i imagine i'd probably be willing to advertise beej for around what i paid Or Nearest Offer. or something like that. i know that with someone else he'll just be so much better and more successful. but just not with me. and it's no fun with him. we have some good days and some bad days, and i really don't have the energy, time, patience or knowledge to slog it out for years and years until he comes good for me on a regular basis. i know that with the right rider he can turn around and be the best horse ever, but just not with me. we are not right for each other, and that's glaringly apparent.
maybe i should just grow some balls and go out and start jumping. seriously.
i saw carly there today & talked about it with her. she was VERY diplomatic & said stuff like, "youre each at different stages. he's ready to go out jumping and you want to do other things..."
i don't know. he's on a contract until may 24th & he failed to keep to the contract today... so he's still got a month.
him, being beejay.
think, being not quite sure, but prob about 95% sure.
sell, as in - do what i can to find him the best possible home, keep riding, keep him in work, maybe get stacey to campaign him a bit as a jumper and you know...
...just not have him in my life anymore...
............................
we tried and failed to get him on the float to go to adult riders today. he would visit beejyland pretty much as soon as he turned to face the float. he would sometimes get about 3/4 of the way on, and his energy would be DOWN and he'd be quiet, and then he'd just explode out of nowhere, and zoom backwards, wacking his head backwards hard rhythmically (this is a new development - another evasion tactic) to rip the rope out of my hands.
obviously in the time i've had him i've spent MANY an hour of my life trying to get him on and today i just had enough after about 50mins. besides, kelli had to go as well & our lesson was meant to be at 11. so i just chucked him back in the paddock, took kelli & ben & had a grand old time horseless, gossiping with friends & doing fuck all.
in the time it took me to dump him back in the paddock & walk back to the car & get kelli loaded up to go to ARC, i'd pretty much decided. maybe it's just a gut reaction, but i'm pretty sure.
i do understand that he had a traumatic experience in the float last week... but it's not as if failing to load on the float is a NEW thing. it's not as if running through me is a NEW thing, or shying or bolting or being in general, quite difficult for ME (and i don't give a fuck about how he is for anyone else, he's MY horse) to get along with is a new development at all. you guys know that.
i used to be fearful of selling him because i felt that i'd spent all that money on him and there'd be no way i'd ever get it back & subsequently would never be able to buy a nice horse ever again...
but now i have taz & i know that $500 CAN buy a nice horse, so i imagine i'd probably be willing to advertise beej for around what i paid Or Nearest Offer. or something like that. i know that with someone else he'll just be so much better and more successful. but just not with me. and it's no fun with him. we have some good days and some bad days, and i really don't have the energy, time, patience or knowledge to slog it out for years and years until he comes good for me on a regular basis. i know that with the right rider he can turn around and be the best horse ever, but just not with me. we are not right for each other, and that's glaringly apparent.
maybe i should just grow some balls and go out and start jumping. seriously.
i saw carly there today & talked about it with her. she was VERY diplomatic & said stuff like, "youre each at different stages. he's ready to go out jumping and you want to do other things..."
i don't know. he's on a contract until may 24th & he failed to keep to the contract today... so he's still got a month.