lost
it's 700pm now and i'm spacing out... i don't know but one of my other co-workers snaped me out of it... after coming out i tryed figuring out why... and the only thing that came through my head was jessie... i don't know i would be worry but for some reason i'm just worried... i want to call her but i can't because maybe three times in one day is too much... i don't think i would think much of it if they were out and about but there at his house alone... i don't know what to do... i want to call... but i can't... it's been very hard lately because of all this working crap... i really dont' know what do... i feel like i'm fighting a losing battle... i don't get to see her anymore... i don't get wake up with her next to me... she won't even try the karen thing... i don't know... i feel so lost... it's like everything we did before to keep us close is no longer an option... i don't want to lose her.. i know that if anything were to happen that she would tell me and let me know what's going on... i just have a really bad feeling that somethings there that isn't being told to me... i gota stop talking... got work to do...