oh brandon...
i can't believe brandon looks amaizing. i don't think i had really seen him in a while. i just could not help feeling sad and stupid at the same time. i mean, i know it was a long time ago but i think some part of me still likes brandon. i was stupid to have done nothing in the past. i guess it was the influence my friends had on me. now i think i make my own decisions a little more. it's like fuck what you guys think. don't like what i like, no one is forcing you. my clothes or accessories aren't of your liking, well, your not wearing them. the boy i like is ugly, well, your not dating him. damn. but hell if you don't like all that, than don't be my friend.
i just wanted to kiss when we started to talk. i wanted to hold him in my arms in hopes of turning back time. i want to go back to the days were we might have had a chance. when we hugged i just felt like crying. i think i want him. it is very selfish of me though. and it is making me sound like i am all boy crazy. but i am not. and if you think that then you don't know me at all.
i am going to try to talk to him. and i don't care what you think. it may not be the same as before but i do want to be his friend.
well went to the mall. i don't think i was much fun today. kinda got depressed than happy. i love rainy days but they always seem to get me down. hope barb and darion didn't have to bad of a time. although i did warn them we would be out all day and they agreed. if you go shopping with me when i am looking for something go at your own risk.
got myself the new ddr extreme 2 awesome. it has some of the older songs. coolie. played it as soon as i got home. than went outside and sat there for what seemed forever thinking. and now i am here.
got the new hana kimi manga. i love it. i wish i could be mizuki. i feel like a child that wishes it could be batman. haha
wow homecoming is just around the corner. it does seem like this year is going by fast. i am not sure i want to be pushed out into the world just yet.
i am feeling a little sick. gonna go to sleep. although it is still early.
Adios.
i just wanted to kiss when we started to talk. i wanted to hold him in my arms in hopes of turning back time. i want to go back to the days were we might have had a chance. when we hugged i just felt like crying. i think i want him. it is very selfish of me though. and it is making me sound like i am all boy crazy. but i am not. and if you think that then you don't know me at all.
i am going to try to talk to him. and i don't care what you think. it may not be the same as before but i do want to be his friend.
well went to the mall. i don't think i was much fun today. kinda got depressed than happy. i love rainy days but they always seem to get me down. hope barb and darion didn't have to bad of a time. although i did warn them we would be out all day and they agreed. if you go shopping with me when i am looking for something go at your own risk.
got myself the new ddr extreme 2 awesome. it has some of the older songs. coolie. played it as soon as i got home. than went outside and sat there for what seemed forever thinking. and now i am here.
got the new hana kimi manga. i love it. i wish i could be mizuki. i feel like a child that wishes it could be batman. haha
wow homecoming is just around the corner. it does seem like this year is going by fast. i am not sure i want to be pushed out into the world just yet.
i am feeling a little sick. gonna go to sleep. although it is still early.
Adios.