Pariah
August 16th, IS 479
In recent times, I have found myself coming close to forgetting my true purpose. The reason why I am here - the only reason.
I am no fool. I can see what he is trying to do, I just fail to understand why he does it. Are his actions genuine, or is it part of a bigger ploy in order to stop me from my mission? It certainly works, I must say. In those few seconds that I laughed, I truly felt like the weights of my responsibilites were lifted off my shoulders - it was the joy of being carefree. However, it did not take me long to realize that the real world is still out there. We cannot escape that no matter how much we lie to ourselves.
I do wish things were different, of course, but I would become a hypocrite if I was to bond with someone here. Even so, I chose to keep the items, because they will always remind me of something I cannot ever have; something so simple such as a normal life. I have promised myself to try on the other set on a special day, perhaps as something symbolic.
The simple truth is, I have no place in anyone's heart. Now why is that so difficult to say when necessary? Food for thought.
-Viki