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so me and john broke up. idk if this is it this time or what. idk anything anymore. i really dont. i hate this.. we talked about everything today and hes just got alot put on his shoulders right now. like i dont want to get into it all cause its just personal stuff going on for him and its really not my business to be telling on here.. but also along with school, home, and friends stuff/problems, hes getting all these new responsibilities put on him right now and he doesnt know how to deal with it all. its just so overwhelming for him.. he needs to sort it all out and therefore its gonna be hard to maintain a relationship through it all. he doesnt want me to feel like im being pushed away, because with everything going on all at once he really isn't going to have much time for me.. he said he needs a couple of weeks, possibly a month (which is probably going to be how long hes grounded). but if it turns out to be anything like out last "break up" (that i dont even really consider a break up cause it was only two days and nothing had changed) i think that it wont be too long... but at the same time, i think that the more time he has to think, the more time he'll have to change his mind. so idk what will happen with us in the future.. but i cant dwell on it and be depressed over it all anymore. i just need to get out with my friends, have fun, and take each day as it comes. as long as my friends are there for me for support i can make it through anything.