I am not a gracious person

[blinkerbook]

I wish I was, I really, truly do.  But every time I find out that someone is doing better than me, I get jealous.  3 years younger than me and you have embarked upon a career?  Fuck you.  I actually wish for people I care about to do as poorly as I do, because if they're doing poorly then it means it's not my fault I'm a loser.  If no one is doing

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[tabloidscully]

You're not a loser, and this situation is certainly not your fault. A year ago, I wrote an article about credit checks being done to work at Target. TARGET. Where your job is to bag other people's Preparation H and frozen enchiladas. Given my poor credit score, I would be terrified to even apply.

This economy is brutal. It's crushing nearly everyone. There are some exceptions to the rule, but don't overlook how most of them have been inexplicably blessed or privileged in their own right. As much as I love him, B is somewhat proof of that. Yes, he's in law school and will be fabulously successful (I hope). But he had the privilege of a father-in-law willing to foot the bill and a ready-made business empire to conquer.

I would say it is definitely a systemic problem, though the only "fault" I can theoretically see you having in your interviews is maybe a confidence one? Despite how gifted and talented I know you to be, you often seem as though you are unaware of your own gifts. I'm serious. It probably won't translate well over LiveJournal, but my God, if people could only get past that insecurity, they would just not even be prepared for how you would blow them away.

I guess I'm basing that partly on our first meeting, where you definitely seemed unsure of yourself in the space you were inhabiting. Could have been the circumstances, too.

[blinkerbook]

Thank you. I appreciate it. A lot.

I do have a problem with insecurity, and while the circumstances of our first meeting may have influenced that, it's not like job interviews aren't nerve-wracking.

Preparation H and burritos made me laugh. :-)