Mianhae [SiChul]
Title: Mianhae
Pairing: SiChul
Rating: R
Warning: Character Death
Disclaimer: I don't own them.
Summary: It's dangerous to drive while being drunk. SiWon and HeeChul had to learn it a painful way as well.
AN: Because I think it's one of the worst things, drunk-driving. So many accidents happen because of it and so many innocent people die.
HeeChul's POV:
"Do you want to come with me?" I ask SiWon with a playful smile but SiWon shakes his head.
"I can't," he says. "I want to visit my parents. I promised."
I nod understandingly. "I'm out with HongKi," I announce and go for a quick kiss.
SiWon holds me in place for a little longer. "Don't drink. You know you still have to come home safe and you have to drive," he tells me. I know he is worried.
So I smile reassuringly and kiss him one more time, before I wave at him and leave.
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SiWon's POV:
I just said goodbye to my parents and now I'm in my car, driving.
I turn on the radio.
"...a serious car accident with two cars involved. According to the police, a young man drove under the influence of alcohol, causing the accident. He is still in critical condition..."
My eyes widen. I look at the time. It is already late, so HeeChul should be on his way back home as well. I can only hope, he has listened to me and hasn't drunk any alcohol.
I quickly reach for my phone and call him. He doesn't answer. My breath stops for a moment and my heart starts to race. I'm suddenly really nervous.
I drive as fast as possible home. No one is there yet when I open the door. I call HeeChul's name but he doesn't answer.
I try to call him once again. He still doesn't pick up.
"HeeChul...," I murmur and run a hand through my hair.
Finally, someone is ringing the door bell. I run to open it and in front of me, there is HeeChul, standing with a small smile. "Hey," he states.
"Oh God," I whisper and hug him tightly.
"Uh, SiWonnie," he says my name. His voice sounds different. He is indeed drunk.
"How can you drive like that?" I ask him in shock.
"What? Nothing happened," he says and I can only sigh. "Better go to bed now. God, I was so scared, something could have happened to you," I tell him but he only continues to grin. "You're right. I'm going to bed now," he announces and leaves.
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HeeChul's POV:
I remember the day before. I know I was drunk. SiWon doesn't like it when I drink. I know he's only worried but it annoys me. I like drinking. It's my business if I do so. I can take care of myself.
I understand him though. I know it's hard for him.
"They said something about a serious accident yesterday evening. I was really scared that it could be you," he tells me.
"I'm sorry," I whisper and pull his head in for a slow kiss.
"I know," he says with a sigh. "Let's go out for dinner," I suggest to distract him and he agrees.
In the evening, he holds my hand while he leads me to his favorite restaurant. We enjoy the food and I know, SiWon has already forgotten about the incident yesterday. He won't talk about it anymore. It's like a silent agreement between us. I like that.
"You want to come with me to the next party? It's in two days," I tell him with a smile. He looks at me skeptically. "So?" I ask again.
He sighs in defeat. "I can't. But you probably will go anyway, right?" His eyes look sad. I feel a little bit guilty for worrying him all the time.
"Don't worry, I won't drink," I tell him confidently.
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SiWon's POV:
I know, he won't listen to me, even if I tell him he shouldn't go.
On our way home, he takes my hand.
"I love you, Chullie," I whisper, just because I think about it right now. It makes me happy to see HeeChul smile next to me.
He chuckles lightly, but answers nonetheless. "I love you, too, SiWonnie. Thank you for trusting me. Still," he says and I stop him from the next step to turn him towards me for a kiss. It's a passionate kiss with much emotion. It makes us happy.
"As long as you stay with me," I say and he nods.
I smile warmly. He looks beautiful in the moonlight. I admire him some more and he looks back at me. He grins, pecks my lips and then pulls on my hand, making me follow him.
We go home and we kiss some more. I like his soft lips and fierce eyes that reflect love and warmth.
He's contrary in himself, but I love him for that.
We make love. His beautiful voice calls out my name. I close my eyes. I enjoy this more than I should. I know, he depends on me, and it makes me smile. I feel proud. I'm worth it.
He looks at me and we kiss again. In his eyes, I see his soul.
"SiWonnie," he murmures. His voice is still hoarse, but calmer this time.
Our lips connect once again.
"You're so beautiful," I whisper. He smiles and my hand runs along his chest.
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HeeChul's POV:
SiWon is writing something down. He sits at his desk.
"SiWonnie," I call him softly.
He looks up from his work. Our eyes meet. I smile at him. "Love you, SiWonnie," I tell him playfully and my smile grows. It's random, but he knows I mean it and he grins back. "Love you, too, my Chullie," he says to me and pulls me towards him.
SiWon's lips feel so good on mine. I can feel his love. And I smile in satisfaction.
"Do you still have much work to do?" I ask him and look down at the sheets in front of him.
He shakes his head.
"Take a break," I tell him and reach for his hand to pull.
His eyes sparkle. I like it. He's so handsome. I can't get enough of him.
"Anything for you, my princess," he says and turns the chair, so that he is facing me with his body.
I wrap my arms around his neck and sit down on his lap. Our lips meet for another kiss. I can't explain this. I can't explain us. We just happened. But I love him. And I already miss his lips.
"You just safed me," I tell him with a smirk.
He raises his eyebrows. I love this expression. I love all his expressions and lean closer to kiss his nose. "I felt like dying because I missed your lips so much," I explain to him.
He laughs when he puts his hands around me. "Good that I'm there to safe you then," he says and we kiss. I feel his tongue in my mouth. I don't even want to fight back. I just let him be. I'm his. I know I usually don't tell him, but I'm sure, he knows anyway. I don't need to tell him. Some things should be clear by now.
He lifts me up in his arms when he suddenly stands up. I scream. He should let me down. But he doesn't listen and carries me out of the room. I hit his chest. He doesn't react.
We both laugh.
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SiWon's POV:
"You really want to go?" I ask HeeChul and he nods. "You don't need to worry. Look, I'm with HongKi," he says. It calms me only a little.
"I ask him to take good care of you," I state and reach for my phone.
HeeChul is quicker and takes it. "SiWonnie, I promise you, I won't drink. Believe me, I won't drink anything," he reassures me.
I hesitate. He kisses my lips and I melt into the kiss. He's a really good kisser. I can never resist his kisses. And so, I nod. "I know. I trust you," I say. He smiles at me thankfully.
I know when he promises me something, I can be sure that he keeps it. He never breaks his promises. That's also the reason why he doesn't give many promises.
He wraps his arms around my neck and we kiss. A passionate kiss.
"I will be back home soon," HeeChul murmures against my lips. "Safe," he adds and kisses me briefly.
"I know you will," I say. My hands travel down his back to his ass. I pinch it. He squeaks and jumps slightly. We both laugh.
"Take care, Chullie," I say.
His hand finds the way down to my own ass and rubs it firmly. "Of course, SiWonnie," he tells me. "Of course."
Our lips lock for one last kiss, before he turns around and leaves.
I laugh silently when I look after his car. It's always the same. When we say bye, it's as if it is a goodbye. Forever. But it isn't. It never is. I know that and that makes me able to let go of him. I know he'll be back soon.
And I turn around to continue with my work.
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HeeChul's POV:
I feel proud. I'm driving home right now. I have to admit, it was one of these times, I wasn't sure if I could keep my promise when I made it.
But now, I know, it is right to not drink. My heart beats faster at the thought of SiWon. He will be impressed to see me completely sober when I arrive at home.
My gaze travels down to my hand. A ring is shining in the light of the street lamps. It makes my heart flutter. I feel so happy these days. This ring belongs to me. It is a sign of his love. I don't necessarily need it. I know he adores me more than anything. But I like how it's sparkling. This way, he's always with me.
A sudden crash interrupts my thoughts. I gasp. I don't know what has happened. I don't know what is happening. I don't know anything. There is a heavy weight in my chest. It suddenly becomes so hard to breathe.
I don't know what is going on. But now, I hear voices faintly talking. "SiWonnie...," I whisper. A weak call. But he doesn't hear me.
My white skin feels warm. I realize, the ground is red. It's mostly my own blood.
Someone is hovering over me. The man's mouth is moving but I don't understand anything. So I call the only name I can remember. "SiWonnie?"
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SiWon's POV:
I sit at my desk. I smile when my gaze falls down to the ring. It's shining so beautifully. Just like HeeChul. I smile even more at the thought of him, but something is bothering me.
I don't know what it is though. I stand up to look at the time. It's already late. HeeChul should be back soon.
I sometimes hate waiting. I miss him really much right now. I can't understand it. I never miss him this much. And that makes me nervous.
I walk to the front door and open it. I stare at the street. Many lights are shining in the darkness. Cars are driving along the road. But HeeChul's car isn't back yet.
I sigh and decide to sit down in front of our house to wait for him. It's not cold tonight. It's spring.
I want to greet HeeChul when he gets out of the car. I don't want to wait any longer.
I look at the ring once again. I lean down and bring my hand to my lips to kiss that ring. It means so much to me. It's a sign that HeeChul is mine. That we belong together. That he is my soulmate. That he is my love. My endless love. I never intend to get away from him ever. I swear to God that I will love him forever.
And I smile at that thought because HeeChul respects it. I know he loves me back with all his heart.
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HeeChul's POV:
I don't know if anyone can hear me. I don't care either. "SiWonnie," I whisper again.
A cold hand touches me.
Finally, I start to understand the voices. My breath stops when I hear them talking about someone being under the influence of alcohol while driving. It isn't me. I haven't drunk anything.
I start to cry. "SiWonnie!" I shout as loud as possible. It's not loud at all, but one of the men turns around. He comes closer and knees next to me. "Can you hear me?" he asks.
I want to nod but my head feels too heavy, so I only mouth the name of the person I want to safe me. "SiWonnie..."
The other one looks at me. I don't know if he understands me, but I sob, "I haven't drunk anything. I swear," I say desperately. "I swear," I slowly repeat.
His hand is warm when he touches my skin carefully.
He shakes his head. I hear him saying something and I scream. My body feels broken. I can't scream. I have no voice anymore. So I scream inside.
But no one hears me. No one is able to.
"SiWonnie, help me, oh, please, help me. Help me. You are always there when I need you, so where are you now...?" I ask. He can't hear me.
They say they can't help me anymore. No one can. So I call SiWon once again. Why can't SiWon help me? He told me once to always protect me.
I want to cry, but by now, I can't even do that anymore.
"SiWonnie, I haven't had any alcohol. The other ones drank it, but not me. I swear. Please, believe me. It's unfair. They said, I will die. Safe me. Why do I have to die? I haven't drunk," I say in my mind. "SiWonnie, come to me, please. Come to me."
And it's only now, that I finally realize how dangerous it has been from me to drive while being drunk. I now understand fully why it's wrong. But the other one still doesn't. "SiWonnie, you have to explain it to him, too," I plead.
It's so hard to breathe. I can't get air in my lungs anymore. "SiWonnie," I whince. "I'm always yours. I'm sorry for making life difficult for you, but I love you so much."
I gasp.
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SiWon's POV:
"Are you already sleeping? I dreamed of flying once again, Chullie," I whisper with a small smile and fall down on my knees.
"I want to fly to you. I miss you so much. I dreamed of taking your hand. And you smiled at me. I remember your last promise. I just wanted to say that I do believe you. I always believed you, Chullie," I say and swallow hard.
I carefully lay a rose down. "I'm sorry I can't give you something else. Something better. Something you deserve," I apologize and sigh silently.
"But I want to give you at least something. Happy birthday. " I whisper silently. My hand clenches my chest. "Why is my heart still beating? Why am I here by myself? Without you?" I ask and tears are falling down. "It hurts."
I look up at the sky to the many stars that sparkle. "But I'll stay strong. For us."
I remain silent afterwards. Minutes pass. I don't even move in that time.
"Good night, Chullie...," I say and my hand runs over the soft grass once before I stand up and leave the graveyard.
Pairing: SiChul
Rating: R
Warning: Character Death
Disclaimer: I don't own them.
Summary: It's dangerous to drive while being drunk. SiWon and HeeChul had to learn it a painful way as well.
AN: Because I think it's one of the worst things, drunk-driving. So many accidents happen because of it and so many innocent people die.
HeeChul's POV:
"Do you want to come with me?" I ask SiWon with a playful smile but SiWon shakes his head.
"I can't," he says. "I want to visit my parents. I promised."
I nod understandingly. "I'm out with HongKi," I announce and go for a quick kiss.
SiWon holds me in place for a little longer. "Don't drink. You know you still have to come home safe and you have to drive," he tells me. I know he is worried.
So I smile reassuringly and kiss him one more time, before I wave at him and leave.
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SiWon's POV:
I just said goodbye to my parents and now I'm in my car, driving.
I turn on the radio.
"...a serious car accident with two cars involved. According to the police, a young man drove under the influence of alcohol, causing the accident. He is still in critical condition..."
My eyes widen. I look at the time. It is already late, so HeeChul should be on his way back home as well. I can only hope, he has listened to me and hasn't drunk any alcohol.
I quickly reach for my phone and call him. He doesn't answer. My breath stops for a moment and my heart starts to race. I'm suddenly really nervous.
I drive as fast as possible home. No one is there yet when I open the door. I call HeeChul's name but he doesn't answer.
I try to call him once again. He still doesn't pick up.
"HeeChul...," I murmur and run a hand through my hair.
Finally, someone is ringing the door bell. I run to open it and in front of me, there is HeeChul, standing with a small smile. "Hey," he states.
"Oh God," I whisper and hug him tightly.
"Uh, SiWonnie," he says my name. His voice sounds different. He is indeed drunk.
"How can you drive like that?" I ask him in shock.
"What? Nothing happened," he says and I can only sigh. "Better go to bed now. God, I was so scared, something could have happened to you," I tell him but he only continues to grin. "You're right. I'm going to bed now," he announces and leaves.
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HeeChul's POV:
I remember the day before. I know I was drunk. SiWon doesn't like it when I drink. I know he's only worried but it annoys me. I like drinking. It's my business if I do so. I can take care of myself.
I understand him though. I know it's hard for him.
"They said something about a serious accident yesterday evening. I was really scared that it could be you," he tells me.
"I'm sorry," I whisper and pull his head in for a slow kiss.
"I know," he says with a sigh. "Let's go out for dinner," I suggest to distract him and he agrees.
In the evening, he holds my hand while he leads me to his favorite restaurant. We enjoy the food and I know, SiWon has already forgotten about the incident yesterday. He won't talk about it anymore. It's like a silent agreement between us. I like that.
"You want to come with me to the next party? It's in two days," I tell him with a smile. He looks at me skeptically. "So?" I ask again.
He sighs in defeat. "I can't. But you probably will go anyway, right?" His eyes look sad. I feel a little bit guilty for worrying him all the time.
"Don't worry, I won't drink," I tell him confidently.
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SiWon's POV:
I know, he won't listen to me, even if I tell him he shouldn't go.
On our way home, he takes my hand.
"I love you, Chullie," I whisper, just because I think about it right now. It makes me happy to see HeeChul smile next to me.
He chuckles lightly, but answers nonetheless. "I love you, too, SiWonnie. Thank you for trusting me. Still," he says and I stop him from the next step to turn him towards me for a kiss. It's a passionate kiss with much emotion. It makes us happy.
"As long as you stay with me," I say and he nods.
I smile warmly. He looks beautiful in the moonlight. I admire him some more and he looks back at me. He grins, pecks my lips and then pulls on my hand, making me follow him.
We go home and we kiss some more. I like his soft lips and fierce eyes that reflect love and warmth.
He's contrary in himself, but I love him for that.
We make love. His beautiful voice calls out my name. I close my eyes. I enjoy this more than I should. I know, he depends on me, and it makes me smile. I feel proud. I'm worth it.
He looks at me and we kiss again. In his eyes, I see his soul.
"SiWonnie," he murmures. His voice is still hoarse, but calmer this time.
Our lips connect once again.
"You're so beautiful," I whisper. He smiles and my hand runs along his chest.
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HeeChul's POV:
SiWon is writing something down. He sits at his desk.
"SiWonnie," I call him softly.
He looks up from his work. Our eyes meet. I smile at him. "Love you, SiWonnie," I tell him playfully and my smile grows. It's random, but he knows I mean it and he grins back. "Love you, too, my Chullie," he says to me and pulls me towards him.
SiWon's lips feel so good on mine. I can feel his love. And I smile in satisfaction.
"Do you still have much work to do?" I ask him and look down at the sheets in front of him.
He shakes his head.
"Take a break," I tell him and reach for his hand to pull.
His eyes sparkle. I like it. He's so handsome. I can't get enough of him.
"Anything for you, my princess," he says and turns the chair, so that he is facing me with his body.
I wrap my arms around his neck and sit down on his lap. Our lips meet for another kiss. I can't explain this. I can't explain us. We just happened. But I love him. And I already miss his lips.
"You just safed me," I tell him with a smirk.
He raises his eyebrows. I love this expression. I love all his expressions and lean closer to kiss his nose. "I felt like dying because I missed your lips so much," I explain to him.
He laughs when he puts his hands around me. "Good that I'm there to safe you then," he says and we kiss. I feel his tongue in my mouth. I don't even want to fight back. I just let him be. I'm his. I know I usually don't tell him, but I'm sure, he knows anyway. I don't need to tell him. Some things should be clear by now.
He lifts me up in his arms when he suddenly stands up. I scream. He should let me down. But he doesn't listen and carries me out of the room. I hit his chest. He doesn't react.
We both laugh.
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SiWon's POV:
"You really want to go?" I ask HeeChul and he nods. "You don't need to worry. Look, I'm with HongKi," he says. It calms me only a little.
"I ask him to take good care of you," I state and reach for my phone.
HeeChul is quicker and takes it. "SiWonnie, I promise you, I won't drink. Believe me, I won't drink anything," he reassures me.
I hesitate. He kisses my lips and I melt into the kiss. He's a really good kisser. I can never resist his kisses. And so, I nod. "I know. I trust you," I say. He smiles at me thankfully.
I know when he promises me something, I can be sure that he keeps it. He never breaks his promises. That's also the reason why he doesn't give many promises.
He wraps his arms around my neck and we kiss. A passionate kiss.
"I will be back home soon," HeeChul murmures against my lips. "Safe," he adds and kisses me briefly.
"I know you will," I say. My hands travel down his back to his ass. I pinch it. He squeaks and jumps slightly. We both laugh.
"Take care, Chullie," I say.
His hand finds the way down to my own ass and rubs it firmly. "Of course, SiWonnie," he tells me. "Of course."
Our lips lock for one last kiss, before he turns around and leaves.
I laugh silently when I look after his car. It's always the same. When we say bye, it's as if it is a goodbye. Forever. But it isn't. It never is. I know that and that makes me able to let go of him. I know he'll be back soon.
And I turn around to continue with my work.
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HeeChul's POV:
I feel proud. I'm driving home right now. I have to admit, it was one of these times, I wasn't sure if I could keep my promise when I made it.
But now, I know, it is right to not drink. My heart beats faster at the thought of SiWon. He will be impressed to see me completely sober when I arrive at home.
My gaze travels down to my hand. A ring is shining in the light of the street lamps. It makes my heart flutter. I feel so happy these days. This ring belongs to me. It is a sign of his love. I don't necessarily need it. I know he adores me more than anything. But I like how it's sparkling. This way, he's always with me.
A sudden crash interrupts my thoughts. I gasp. I don't know what has happened. I don't know what is happening. I don't know anything. There is a heavy weight in my chest. It suddenly becomes so hard to breathe.
I don't know what is going on. But now, I hear voices faintly talking. "SiWonnie...," I whisper. A weak call. But he doesn't hear me.
My white skin feels warm. I realize, the ground is red. It's mostly my own blood.
Someone is hovering over me. The man's mouth is moving but I don't understand anything. So I call the only name I can remember. "SiWonnie?"
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SiWon's POV:
I sit at my desk. I smile when my gaze falls down to the ring. It's shining so beautifully. Just like HeeChul. I smile even more at the thought of him, but something is bothering me.
I don't know what it is though. I stand up to look at the time. It's already late. HeeChul should be back soon.
I sometimes hate waiting. I miss him really much right now. I can't understand it. I never miss him this much. And that makes me nervous.
I walk to the front door and open it. I stare at the street. Many lights are shining in the darkness. Cars are driving along the road. But HeeChul's car isn't back yet.
I sigh and decide to sit down in front of our house to wait for him. It's not cold tonight. It's spring.
I want to greet HeeChul when he gets out of the car. I don't want to wait any longer.
I look at the ring once again. I lean down and bring my hand to my lips to kiss that ring. It means so much to me. It's a sign that HeeChul is mine. That we belong together. That he is my soulmate. That he is my love. My endless love. I never intend to get away from him ever. I swear to God that I will love him forever.
And I smile at that thought because HeeChul respects it. I know he loves me back with all his heart.
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HeeChul's POV:
I don't know if anyone can hear me. I don't care either. "SiWonnie," I whisper again.
A cold hand touches me.
Finally, I start to understand the voices. My breath stops when I hear them talking about someone being under the influence of alcohol while driving. It isn't me. I haven't drunk anything.
I start to cry. "SiWonnie!" I shout as loud as possible. It's not loud at all, but one of the men turns around. He comes closer and knees next to me. "Can you hear me?" he asks.
I want to nod but my head feels too heavy, so I only mouth the name of the person I want to safe me. "SiWonnie..."
The other one looks at me. I don't know if he understands me, but I sob, "I haven't drunk anything. I swear," I say desperately. "I swear," I slowly repeat.
His hand is warm when he touches my skin carefully.
He shakes his head. I hear him saying something and I scream. My body feels broken. I can't scream. I have no voice anymore. So I scream inside.
But no one hears me. No one is able to.
"SiWonnie, help me, oh, please, help me. Help me. You are always there when I need you, so where are you now...?" I ask. He can't hear me.
They say they can't help me anymore. No one can. So I call SiWon once again. Why can't SiWon help me? He told me once to always protect me.
I want to cry, but by now, I can't even do that anymore.
"SiWonnie, I haven't had any alcohol. The other ones drank it, but not me. I swear. Please, believe me. It's unfair. They said, I will die. Safe me. Why do I have to die? I haven't drunk," I say in my mind. "SiWonnie, come to me, please. Come to me."
And it's only now, that I finally realize how dangerous it has been from me to drive while being drunk. I now understand fully why it's wrong. But the other one still doesn't. "SiWonnie, you have to explain it to him, too," I plead.
It's so hard to breathe. I can't get air in my lungs anymore. "SiWonnie," I whince. "I'm always yours. I'm sorry for making life difficult for you, but I love you so much."
I gasp.
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SiWon's POV:
"Are you already sleeping? I dreamed of flying once again, Chullie," I whisper with a small smile and fall down on my knees.
"I want to fly to you. I miss you so much. I dreamed of taking your hand. And you smiled at me. I remember your last promise. I just wanted to say that I do believe you. I always believed you, Chullie," I say and swallow hard.
I carefully lay a rose down. "I'm sorry I can't give you something else. Something better. Something you deserve," I apologize and sigh silently.
"But I want to give you at least something. Happy birthday. " I whisper silently. My hand clenches my chest. "Why is my heart still beating? Why am I here by myself? Without you?" I ask and tears are falling down. "It hurts."
I look up at the sky to the many stars that sparkle. "But I'll stay strong. For us."
I remain silent afterwards. Minutes pass. I don't even move in that time.
"Good night, Chullie...," I say and my hand runs over the soft grass once before I stand up and leave the graveyard.