just ... nevermind
I've been doing overnighters. It didn't really matter, until yesterday. I fell asleep around 8a and slept until 4 pm. i haven't slept since. doesn't seem like that big a deal, but i'm dying to sleep. Then again, not sleeping isn't helped by a very good show. Dexter. The HBO show about a serial killer, only it's ... different from the sociopaths i'm used to. on tv. heh. it's very good.
I can't really think. I wanted to go on and on about the distance between shawn and i. How i can't really touch him anymore without slowly annoying him. I can't talk to him. or anyone. only the empty screens of livejournal. I find myself wanting to seperate and push it all away. push it further away. i want to encourage the distance. help it. stop depending on him. leaning on him. maybe then he won't pull away so much. cut me off.
i'm hungry.
I can't really think. I wanted to go on and on about the distance between shawn and i. How i can't really touch him anymore without slowly annoying him. I can't talk to him. or anyone. only the empty screens of livejournal. I find myself wanting to seperate and push it all away. push it further away. i want to encourage the distance. help it. stop depending on him. leaning on him. maybe then he won't pull away so much. cut me off.
i'm hungry.