rest in peace. <3

[blindfolded626]

life can be so damn hard to deal with sometimes. but i guess that's what's supposed to happen. and i guess i should be grateful that i still have a life. i still can breathe the earths air, walk the crowded streets, watch the simple things in life. i think we take life for granted wayyy tooo much. and its sad that only in times of tragedy do we speak of this ungratefulness. a 21 year old boy's life was taken from him this week. and it really hit home. it's so hard to think that in just a second, your whole life can be in jeopardy. i can't imagine ending my life right now, with all this living left to do. i cant imagine it, not for one second. it hurts so much to think of his family, his brother especially, and how they must feel. i know what it's like to lose a loved one, but not someone as close as a brother. wow. its so unbelievable. i can't seem to grasp the idea that i'll never sit in that house again, in that room, with him and his brother, just laughing. i can't seem to grasp the idea that he'll never again develop my film in eckerds while making small talk. it's rough. its hard to come to the realization that he's really gone. he'll never get to do the simple things in life again. he'll never get to grow up and become something he's always dreamed of. he'll never get that opportunity. and thats what makes this so hard to deal with. but i know he's in a better place now, and i know he'll be satisfied there. i know i wasnt the closest friend, but it still affects my life. a lot. and its sad to say, but these are the times when i feel closest to understanding who i am. to being grateful for what i possess and have the ability to possess. it makes me appreciate life a hell of a lot more. i think his death will remain a reminder to live every day to its full potential, because you never know if you'll get another one.

but in the long run, its the friends by your side that will help you get through these hardships. and im so glad i have mine by my side. we'll deal with this, together, as one big family. it'll all be alright.