Life is so full of ups and downs,
but lately, i feel like i'm going to be nauseous.
Just when I think things are looking up, something bad happens again and the cycle starts all over again.
Life was really picking up in the beginning of the week. I was getting a lot accomplished, and friends were absolutely amazing. They still are, but times are just getting harder right now.
Work is ridiculous. I only work one day a week now, for maybe three hours if I push the limit. That's crazy. I need a new job, but i have so many limits to when I can work. I need off so much in December for certain things, that I don't think any place will want to hire me. However, I'm desperate for the money. Ah, I don't know what to do.
Along with needing money, Christmas is right around the corner. Do you know who I have presents for? Oh, no one. Isn't that wonderful? I know what i'm getting ashley and lisa. I still need to buy for JackieP, mom, dad, and mykal. Anyone have any ideas? Me either.
Yesterday I went to NYC with some of the most amazing kids in the world. Actually, my favorite friends (minus ashley because she couldn't come =/ ). I had a wonderful time singing and dancing and just being with those funny, funny kids. It was such a bond. <3. So, I give thanks for the most amazing, wonderful, understanding, caring friends in the world. I am the luckiest!
Then I came home to just all bad news. Jax, my dog, broke his line outside and ran away. My parents were looking for him for three hours and there was no sign. Finally, my dad decided to drive around the block once more to look for him. Two ladies had grabbed ahold of him and saw he was still attached to his line. My dad saw their truck pulled over and went right over. Sure enough, they had found him. Thank god. My parents were so torn, I can just imagine. My mom said dad was a complete wreck. Man. I wish i could've helped.
Then John Whelan calls me. We've been sharing stories with each other recently because I'm an EMT and he's a fire fighter. (god bless him). So I was expecting a regular story to talk about. However, that wasn't the case. Since it was wednesday, Jackie and I should have been at the squad house because it was our meeting night. Of course, we weren't there because we were in NY. Well, apparantly john's house caught on fire. No one was home, and no one was hurt. He had to respond to his own house, isn't that crazy? The personnel on scene told him to get checked out by the EMT's. He said he asked if I was there, and then when he heard i wasn't, he wouldn't go over there. I felt so bad. I felt like I should have been there for him. No matter how crazy the boy is, he is such a great friend and can actually (believe it or not) be serious! I know his passion for fire fighting is something undescribable, and he said putting out his own house fire made him certain that that is what he wants to do in life. John and I are pretty close now, and I consider him a very good friend. I feel terrible for what happened, and i wish I had been there. I understand there wasn't much I could have done, but being there for my friends when they need me is the most important aspect of my life. I feel like i've let him down. But, I'm extremely happy that everything is alright with him. <3. We're supposed to hang out today, so that's good.
That was long. Sorry. Anyway. I stayed home from school today because I was sick. I woke up at about 12:30. I'm about to go back to sleep. I know I'm not supposed to skip school the day after a trip, but I don't care. I'm hoping the office will understand and won't punish me. Oh well. I guess we'll see tomorrow.... if it isn't a snow day. Which I'm praying for, so that I can rest up and whatnot. hopefully i can clean my room and fill out some more scholarships, too. i'm slacking wayyy toooo much in both of those areas.
I really wish things would start looking up now. I just need some time to get things back in order and whatnot. I have two more college apps to send out, so I better get busy with that. Yada yada yada.
<3.
p.s. school isn't too shabby. i forgot to mention that. although i've been sleeping in first and second period a TON, it's alright. we haven't been doing much. i'm sure a lot of project will all hit at once, though, since christmas break is approaching. hm, i better get prepared.
<3.
Just when I think things are looking up, something bad happens again and the cycle starts all over again.
Life was really picking up in the beginning of the week. I was getting a lot accomplished, and friends were absolutely amazing. They still are, but times are just getting harder right now.
Work is ridiculous. I only work one day a week now, for maybe three hours if I push the limit. That's crazy. I need a new job, but i have so many limits to when I can work. I need off so much in December for certain things, that I don't think any place will want to hire me. However, I'm desperate for the money. Ah, I don't know what to do.
Along with needing money, Christmas is right around the corner. Do you know who I have presents for? Oh, no one. Isn't that wonderful? I know what i'm getting ashley and lisa. I still need to buy for JackieP, mom, dad, and mykal. Anyone have any ideas? Me either.
Yesterday I went to NYC with some of the most amazing kids in the world. Actually, my favorite friends (minus ashley because she couldn't come =/ ). I had a wonderful time singing and dancing and just being with those funny, funny kids. It was such a bond. <3. So, I give thanks for the most amazing, wonderful, understanding, caring friends in the world. I am the luckiest!
Then I came home to just all bad news. Jax, my dog, broke his line outside and ran away. My parents were looking for him for three hours and there was no sign. Finally, my dad decided to drive around the block once more to look for him. Two ladies had grabbed ahold of him and saw he was still attached to his line. My dad saw their truck pulled over and went right over. Sure enough, they had found him. Thank god. My parents were so torn, I can just imagine. My mom said dad was a complete wreck. Man. I wish i could've helped.
Then John Whelan calls me. We've been sharing stories with each other recently because I'm an EMT and he's a fire fighter. (god bless him). So I was expecting a regular story to talk about. However, that wasn't the case. Since it was wednesday, Jackie and I should have been at the squad house because it was our meeting night. Of course, we weren't there because we were in NY. Well, apparantly john's house caught on fire. No one was home, and no one was hurt. He had to respond to his own house, isn't that crazy? The personnel on scene told him to get checked out by the EMT's. He said he asked if I was there, and then when he heard i wasn't, he wouldn't go over there. I felt so bad. I felt like I should have been there for him. No matter how crazy the boy is, he is such a great friend and can actually (believe it or not) be serious! I know his passion for fire fighting is something undescribable, and he said putting out his own house fire made him certain that that is what he wants to do in life. John and I are pretty close now, and I consider him a very good friend. I feel terrible for what happened, and i wish I had been there. I understand there wasn't much I could have done, but being there for my friends when they need me is the most important aspect of my life. I feel like i've let him down. But, I'm extremely happy that everything is alright with him. <3. We're supposed to hang out today, so that's good.
That was long. Sorry. Anyway. I stayed home from school today because I was sick. I woke up at about 12:30. I'm about to go back to sleep. I know I'm not supposed to skip school the day after a trip, but I don't care. I'm hoping the office will understand and won't punish me. Oh well. I guess we'll see tomorrow.... if it isn't a snow day. Which I'm praying for, so that I can rest up and whatnot. hopefully i can clean my room and fill out some more scholarships, too. i'm slacking wayyy toooo much in both of those areas.
I really wish things would start looking up now. I just need some time to get things back in order and whatnot. I have two more college apps to send out, so I better get busy with that. Yada yada yada.
<3.
p.s. school isn't too shabby. i forgot to mention that. although i've been sleeping in first and second period a TON, it's alright. we haven't been doing much. i'm sure a lot of project will all hit at once, though, since christmas break is approaching. hm, i better get prepared.
<3.