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I ACTUALLY DON'T HAVE MUCH TO SAY, but i figured i'd reassure the 'net at large that i'm not seething in a dark room with a razor blade. after so long, i just tend to put the crazy to the back of my mind and compartmentalize real quick. V___V i don't have the energy to think about stuff too deeply. ONE DAY I WILL MOVE AWAY, and then i won't have to worry about it, because i'll be too busy caring for my future ferrets and struggling to pay rent to deal with relatives. :|
the whole funeral-driven reunion thing wasn't disquieting the entire time, either. like for example, i met my second cousin? my cousin's kid? whatever, met him for the first time. i knew of his birth but i hadn't seen him until then, and he's six now. his name's Luke, AND HE IS ACTUALLY REALLY, REALLY CUTE with these big brown eyes and fire engine red hair. i was watching TV in the living room when he came in. eventually he started talking to me about the TV show and playing around with my phone, and then like half an hour later, he solemnly turned out of the blue and asked if i minded him being in the room. LAWL IDEK, it was weirdly sweet. once he seemed assured i wasn't going to punt him out the window, he was more comfortable goofing off, i think, and went out of the way to say goodbye to me at the end of the night. haha, it was kind of surreal but cute. i'm not sure i've ever spent so long around someone his age before, and definitely not a kid who paid me attention over his parents or his sisters or whatever.
YEAH, ANYWAY, THAT'S ONE OF MY STORIES. next time i see him he'll probably have kids of his own or something, but it was a good time.
speaking of, one of my other cousins had a kid two days before my grandmother passed, hence we went looking for a present today and i ended up discovering Bed Bath & Beyond for the first time. it's... a magical store. *__* i found a lot of cool stuff for my room(s). and speaking of my dorm room, i move in August 29th while the semester doesn't start until September 8th. a week and some with nothing to do? PAR-TAY~
the whole funeral-driven reunion thing wasn't disquieting the entire time, either. like for example, i met my second cousin? my cousin's kid? whatever, met him for the first time. i knew of his birth but i hadn't seen him until then, and he's six now. his name's Luke, AND HE IS ACTUALLY REALLY, REALLY CUTE with these big brown eyes and fire engine red hair. i was watching TV in the living room when he came in. eventually he started talking to me about the TV show and playing around with my phone, and then like half an hour later, he solemnly turned out of the blue and asked if i minded him being in the room. LAWL IDEK, it was weirdly sweet. once he seemed assured i wasn't going to punt him out the window, he was more comfortable goofing off, i think, and went out of the way to say goodbye to me at the end of the night. haha, it was kind of surreal but cute. i'm not sure i've ever spent so long around someone his age before, and definitely not a kid who paid me attention over his parents or his sisters or whatever.
YEAH, ANYWAY, THAT'S ONE OF MY STORIES. next time i see him he'll probably have kids of his own or something, but it was a good time.
speaking of, one of my other cousins had a kid two days before my grandmother passed, hence we went looking for a present today and i ended up discovering Bed Bath & Beyond for the first time. it's... a magical store. *__* i found a lot of cool stuff for my room(s). and speaking of my dorm room, i move in August 29th while the semester doesn't start until September 8th. a week and some with nothing to do? PAR-TAY~