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back early. :D tired.
mom’s a stupid bitch. spent the entire time swearing and deriding everyone for absolutely everything, including being sad. urged me to drive partway on the 10-12 hour drive back, but flipped out in a parking lot, smacked me, and started yelling, so no more driving. crazy. when’s her funeral? soon, i hope?
i don’t know about the rest of my family. it’s awkward being a stranger around strangers, but even more awkward to be a stranger around family. i almost felt it was disrespectful to be situating myself with the "loved ones," like i was pretending. which i guess plenty of relatives were doing, wanting a hand in her stuff like her car, her house, etc. i don’t doubt funerals are like that in most places. what that says about families and people in general, i also don’t know.
or maybe it’s just having grown up with my mother. she makes me hateful.
anyway, that's that. how are you?
mom’s a stupid bitch. spent the entire time swearing and deriding everyone for absolutely everything, including being sad. urged me to drive partway on the 10-12 hour drive back, but flipped out in a parking lot, smacked me, and started yelling, so no more driving. crazy. when’s her funeral? soon, i hope?
i don’t know about the rest of my family. it’s awkward being a stranger around strangers, but even more awkward to be a stranger around family. i almost felt it was disrespectful to be situating myself with the "loved ones," like i was pretending. which i guess plenty of relatives were doing, wanting a hand in her stuff like her car, her house, etc. i don’t doubt funerals are like that in most places. what that says about families and people in general, i also don’t know.
or maybe it’s just having grown up with my mother. she makes me hateful.
anyway, that's that. how are you?