Fuckity Fuck
So, after much thinking and thinking and rethinking and considering and reconsidering... I finally typed up my letter of resignation and quit my job at the cinema today. Kinda sucks, but I feel like a huge weight's been lifted. I can no longer be taken for granted. I deserve to be valued, and if you can't appreciate me or see my full potential... I gotta move on. I don't even want to get into the specifics. I'm just happy to be moving on. Too tired of feeling like a pushover. Always willing and giving and it never pays off. The beautiful people and the bitches and assholes have it so much easier. "/
At least I have an assignment with Baptist until mid-November. It's only 8:30a-12:30a, Tuesdays, Wednesdays and Thursdays... but it's definitely better than nothing. I applied for unemployement (I didn't know I qualified since I've been working less than 30 hours a week until recently), but I need to do some skills assessment thing before I could claim any help. Gotta do that sometime this weekend! Hopefully it works out and I start getting a little help. Also, if/once I get unemployement I could also defer my student loans (temporarily). <<< That would be a huge help.
Anywho, I hope to be getting the fuck out of Miami sooner than later. Whether it be to start a new job or start grad school... I just can't wait to move on from this city. While still here, I hope I can find a place to call my home. Nothing against my family (that I love to death), but I completely feel like a moocher here, unable to really contribute much (financially). :( Plus, I really miss having my own space, privacy, freedom. I miss being able to get HOME and do my thing, freely. I'm too old for these restrictions. Bah.
In the mean time, I'm trying my best to just keep my head up and keep moving forward. It's hard when shit's fucked up and you feel alone. I miss the days I had someone to call my best friend. I miss having a social life to distract me from the thoughts in my head. Overall, I'm just tired of feeling lonely. Practically single since I was 15... that shit is tough on an emotional Cancer like myself. Obviously, I'm not trying to be in a relationship just to be in one (otherwise I wouldn't have been single this fucking long)... but dammit, how much longer until I meet my partner in crime? Please come to me soon. <3
::sigh::
OK. Moving on now. Much better.
-Katt
At least I have an assignment with Baptist until mid-November. It's only 8:30a-12:30a, Tuesdays, Wednesdays and Thursdays... but it's definitely better than nothing. I applied for unemployement (I didn't know I qualified since I've been working less than 30 hours a week until recently), but I need to do some skills assessment thing before I could claim any help. Gotta do that sometime this weekend! Hopefully it works out and I start getting a little help. Also, if/once I get unemployement I could also defer my student loans (temporarily). <<< That would be a huge help.
Anywho, I hope to be getting the fuck out of Miami sooner than later. Whether it be to start a new job or start grad school... I just can't wait to move on from this city. While still here, I hope I can find a place to call my home. Nothing against my family (that I love to death), but I completely feel like a moocher here, unable to really contribute much (financially). :( Plus, I really miss having my own space, privacy, freedom. I miss being able to get HOME and do my thing, freely. I'm too old for these restrictions. Bah.
In the mean time, I'm trying my best to just keep my head up and keep moving forward. It's hard when shit's fucked up and you feel alone. I miss the days I had someone to call my best friend. I miss having a social life to distract me from the thoughts in my head. Overall, I'm just tired of feeling lonely. Practically single since I was 15... that shit is tough on an emotional Cancer like myself. Obviously, I'm not trying to be in a relationship just to be in one (otherwise I wouldn't have been single this fucking long)... but dammit, how much longer until I meet my partner in crime? Please come to me soon. <3
::sigh::
OK. Moving on now. Much better.
-Katt