This morning, I dreamed I had died.

Because a part of me has.

That girl is gone forever.

This was the longest day ever. I just got home.

I have to wean myself from checking email. The email I am waiting for is not going to come.

Today was also one of the worst days ever. I hurt so much. I wish I could go to bed instead of hitting refresh on my email for the next 4 hours.

Today has been an incredibly long and painful day. I have been through the wringer. I don't know what is going to happen next. I wish I could just float away in a cloud of oblivion. I am so angry and sad and confused and doing stupid things.

All of my instincts are telling me to just run and never look back. The pain I feel now and the pain I would ( Read more... )

Home, sweet home ( Read more... )