6am Saturday morning...
5:30am I am awoken by a doggy who needs to pee, and after that I just couldn't get back to sleep. I tried, but I have too much on my mind, and I don't seem to be sleepy anymore. My headache has gone and I feel kinda refreshed. I sat on the steps in the yard for a bit sipping at my tea, listened to the GPO clock chime 6, listened to the birds and noted the distinct lack of pretty red glow in the sky I wanted. Maybe later.
shatteredsaint didn't get his job. We have to move now. We are going to live with my mum and dad because they always bail us out, I am glad we have them. I feel guilty, dead guilty about quixotic_pawn. I want to make everything right for her and make all the bad things go away and solve all her problems, and all I am doing is creating more of them. I am sorry Nyssa. We are off to Melbourne when we have some money, there is no future here for us. Ugh packing, at least that is something I haven't had to do for over 6 months now, actually about 8 ^_^ woohoo go me that is a record I think. I move a lot, but I didn't want it to be like this. I am looking at it all positively, I just have to try not to get all sentimental and sooky, Tasmania is lovely, but a pretty sky, beautiful birds and some sweet memories from a pile of bitter ones is not reason to stay. If I do not do this now I will never do it, and this is something I know I will end up regretting for the rest of my life. I am hoping for a future, I am hoping to change the situation even just a little. I will miss my friends, the few people I truly do treasure, but leaving here doesn't make them disappear and it won't make them any less important to me. Ugh the guilt, I hope we can help Nyssa be happy. If it were just us I would be fine, but as Scott said, it is like breaking up a family, Sally is going to go berserk.
So Melbournites.... especially ones that have done this before, any advice? Also is there any areas we should avoid, we noticed rent was cheap in Brunswick and some of the places near Flemington, but is there a reason?
Ahh I need to look positively, the future holds all sorts of mysteries, and nothing can really top the low right now of being desperate and jobless, and almost homeless, I'm going to tuck Nyssa into my bags... mwahahah.
I wish I would stop having all these damn weepy moments though.
shatteredsaint didn't get his job. We have to move now. We are going to live with my mum and dad because they always bail us out, I am glad we have them. I feel guilty, dead guilty about quixotic_pawn. I want to make everything right for her and make all the bad things go away and solve all her problems, and all I am doing is creating more of them. I am sorry Nyssa. We are off to Melbourne when we have some money, there is no future here for us. Ugh packing, at least that is something I haven't had to do for over 6 months now, actually about 8 ^_^ woohoo go me that is a record I think. I move a lot, but I didn't want it to be like this. I am looking at it all positively, I just have to try not to get all sentimental and sooky, Tasmania is lovely, but a pretty sky, beautiful birds and some sweet memories from a pile of bitter ones is not reason to stay. If I do not do this now I will never do it, and this is something I know I will end up regretting for the rest of my life. I am hoping for a future, I am hoping to change the situation even just a little. I will miss my friends, the few people I truly do treasure, but leaving here doesn't make them disappear and it won't make them any less important to me. Ugh the guilt, I hope we can help Nyssa be happy. If it were just us I would be fine, but as Scott said, it is like breaking up a family, Sally is going to go berserk.
So Melbournites.... especially ones that have done this before, any advice? Also is there any areas we should avoid, we noticed rent was cheap in Brunswick and some of the places near Flemington, but is there a reason?
Ahh I need to look positively, the future holds all sorts of mysteries, and nothing can really top the low right now of being desperate and jobless, and almost homeless, I'm going to tuck Nyssa into my bags... mwahahah.
I wish I would stop having all these damn weepy moments though.