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Bah! im so upset right now bc u know i just dont know if me and rex are going to work out...bc its like wen me n him arent together hes always like iwant u soo bad..i miss u more than anything right now and then he has me and he duzn say that anymore and u know it duzn even feel like that..UGH this sux soo fucking much! i know i should maybe break up with him but thats the thing i love him soo much that and i just dont wnat to break up with him again i hate myself right now soo fucking much! i dont know what to do anymore with myself i jsyt want to go aomewhere and cry bc i dont know wut to do with myself anymore bc ive let myself do this so many times and it hurts me soo much cept for they would cheat on me and all that shit and u know im sick of it im sick of always getting hurt and i mean i actually thought this would work out we have been together for 3 moonths tomorrw and it feels like its been nothing i dont mean to sound like a bitch but honestly it feels like...that were not together..and i want anything to feel like we are together....wtf is wrong with me i mean honestly u think i would learn by now but no i havent i have not learned bc if ihave i wouldn be letting myself get hurt still! i just wnat to fucking die!!111 bc u know i hate myself so fucking much that im starting to make meself sick and i dont even care anymore im going to post a poem

i ask myself the same
question...why?
why do i let myself
hurt

why must i pretend that
he cares..why must
i always avoid the fact
that he maybe doesnt
even want to be with me

maybe hes scared to break it
between me and him
All i know is that
i just want to know

i want to know
if he does even care
if he even does really
want to be with me

or is it just a game
that he is playing with my
mind if it is a game
i quit i no longer

want to be part of his mind tricks

ok well there it is ihope u like it

peace morgan