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well things arnt goin bad.
jen doesnt seem to be moving..at least..not soon
me and kt r just havin an awesome time in french
me and gore are completly awesome again
and everything seems to be going fairly well
except for me being sick for like a week. EH! i got food poisening on saterday night on gormans lawn. it was horrible. but it really showed me how great my friends are. like all of them were being really supportive and caring. like jen was the most helping. she was rubbing my back, put my hair up and like telling me to just breath and itll be better soon and it just was really helping me. then zack buckled me in and john drove me home...even when i was gunna puke in his car. and then him and jacob walked me up to the door so i didnt fall. everyone was just awesome. and i thank all of u so much for it.
well schools goin...well its goin. its hard to just balance shit. i still miss last year soo much but its gone so dont waste your time thinking about it.
but its hard in the hallway. its like hey i havent seen u in a year but we used to be awesome friends...do i wave and risk a total rejection and embarrassment or do i smile which is also risky but without such the rejection at stake or do i completly ignore u. its so hard. i dont know. theres so many ppl like that. and plus i zone out alot in the halls so when ppl wave and i dont wave back its because im out of it not that im ignoring that. i wouldnt be that bitchy. maybe i just am looking to into the whole hallway process. and yes it is a process now.
so who here hates the prices of the food at school and the cranky lunch ladies that over charges u ::raises hand::
MURRRRR i wish sumtin unexpecting and just random happens. that would just rock. i love random shit.
o and by the way...I HATE ART. i cant do it for shit. like ppl next to me are like o god this looks aweful! and its 80 million times better then mine. im just like god i suck. GRRR it sucks so fuckin bad. ive always hated art and i get soo frustrated at it where i just want to cry. and what pisses me off so much is i kno that im the worst in the class cuz ive seen ever1 elses pictures and the teacher just goes around saying o u should have rounded that a lil more or u need to make that larger and just making their projects better but she has yet to say anything to me to help me improve WHEN IM THE WORST! how the hell am i gunna get better. god. its just frustrating.
Something else that bugs me is those teachers that dont even try to get to know you. Like i kno they have a lot of students but i mean its nice to know that they actually want to kno u and not just see your face to get a paycheck. i know like in art i dont have any friends in that class and im quiet as can be and it just makes me feel really alone and isolated and its just like i act the opposite as i normally do. that just adds to the fact that ART SUCKS and i cant do it
yeah mom needs to stop bitching its really aggrivating and saddening
u know what i hate. is ppl who r like yea were friends but their too cool for u to even say hi in the hallways. god its like fuck u bastard. what the fuck have u done in my life anyway.
lets see...what else is there to complain about..OO zero hour blows and i highly reccommend NOT taking it next year. ull regret it.
i havent been wanting to eat lately..its weird..and no it has nothing to do with lossing weight or any crazy shit like that..i just dont feel like it
wow i just realized how nice it is NOT to be depressed
every1...u rock
i also just realized how proud i am of myself. like i have gone thru a lot of shit in my life and ive had my low points but i pushed myself out of them and i am good enuff to say im proud of myself. and thats sooo much personal satisfaction it just fills up anything unhappy in me.
and i have so may ppl to thank just for helping me thru it all. even when u dont think it, i do appreciate everything u do for me. and i do remember little things. thanks
"i am flawed
but i am cleaning up so well
i am seeing in me now
the things u swore you saw yourself"
~~~dashboard confessionals~~~
"I don't feel the way I've ever felt.
I know.
I'm gonna smile and not get worried.
I try but it shows.....
I can't let it bother me.
It takes my pain away."
~~~~jimmy eat world (pain) ~~~~
"Come up to meet you,
Tell you I'm sorry,
You don't know how lovely you are.
I had to find you,
Tell you I need you,
Tell you I set you apart.
Tell me your secrets,
And ask me your questions,
Oh, let's go back to the start."
~~~~coldplay~~~~
"And it's been a while
Since I could
Hold my head up high
And it's been awhile
Since I said I'm sorry"
~~~~~staind~~~~~
"I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you"
~~~~~hoobastank~~~~~
"we were meant to live for soo much more"
~~~~~switchfoot~~~~~
jen doesnt seem to be moving..at least..not soon
me and kt r just havin an awesome time in french
me and gore are completly awesome again
and everything seems to be going fairly well
except for me being sick for like a week. EH! i got food poisening on saterday night on gormans lawn. it was horrible. but it really showed me how great my friends are. like all of them were being really supportive and caring. like jen was the most helping. she was rubbing my back, put my hair up and like telling me to just breath and itll be better soon and it just was really helping me. then zack buckled me in and john drove me home...even when i was gunna puke in his car. and then him and jacob walked me up to the door so i didnt fall. everyone was just awesome. and i thank all of u so much for it.
well schools goin...well its goin. its hard to just balance shit. i still miss last year soo much but its gone so dont waste your time thinking about it.
but its hard in the hallway. its like hey i havent seen u in a year but we used to be awesome friends...do i wave and risk a total rejection and embarrassment or do i smile which is also risky but without such the rejection at stake or do i completly ignore u. its so hard. i dont know. theres so many ppl like that. and plus i zone out alot in the halls so when ppl wave and i dont wave back its because im out of it not that im ignoring that. i wouldnt be that bitchy. maybe i just am looking to into the whole hallway process. and yes it is a process now.
so who here hates the prices of the food at school and the cranky lunch ladies that over charges u ::raises hand::
MURRRRR i wish sumtin unexpecting and just random happens. that would just rock. i love random shit.
o and by the way...I HATE ART. i cant do it for shit. like ppl next to me are like o god this looks aweful! and its 80 million times better then mine. im just like god i suck. GRRR it sucks so fuckin bad. ive always hated art and i get soo frustrated at it where i just want to cry. and what pisses me off so much is i kno that im the worst in the class cuz ive seen ever1 elses pictures and the teacher just goes around saying o u should have rounded that a lil more or u need to make that larger and just making their projects better but she has yet to say anything to me to help me improve WHEN IM THE WORST! how the hell am i gunna get better. god. its just frustrating.
Something else that bugs me is those teachers that dont even try to get to know you. Like i kno they have a lot of students but i mean its nice to know that they actually want to kno u and not just see your face to get a paycheck. i know like in art i dont have any friends in that class and im quiet as can be and it just makes me feel really alone and isolated and its just like i act the opposite as i normally do. that just adds to the fact that ART SUCKS and i cant do it
yeah mom needs to stop bitching its really aggrivating and saddening
u know what i hate. is ppl who r like yea were friends but their too cool for u to even say hi in the hallways. god its like fuck u bastard. what the fuck have u done in my life anyway.
lets see...what else is there to complain about..OO zero hour blows and i highly reccommend NOT taking it next year. ull regret it.
i havent been wanting to eat lately..its weird..and no it has nothing to do with lossing weight or any crazy shit like that..i just dont feel like it
wow i just realized how nice it is NOT to be depressed
every1...u rock
i also just realized how proud i am of myself. like i have gone thru a lot of shit in my life and ive had my low points but i pushed myself out of them and i am good enuff to say im proud of myself. and thats sooo much personal satisfaction it just fills up anything unhappy in me.
and i have so may ppl to thank just for helping me thru it all. even when u dont think it, i do appreciate everything u do for me. and i do remember little things. thanks
"i am flawed
but i am cleaning up so well
i am seeing in me now
the things u swore you saw yourself"
~~~dashboard confessionals~~~
"I don't feel the way I've ever felt.
I know.
I'm gonna smile and not get worried.
I try but it shows.....
I can't let it bother me.
It takes my pain away."
~~~~jimmy eat world (pain) ~~~~
"Come up to meet you,
Tell you I'm sorry,
You don't know how lovely you are.
I had to find you,
Tell you I need you,
Tell you I set you apart.
Tell me your secrets,
And ask me your questions,
Oh, let's go back to the start."
~~~~coldplay~~~~
"And it's been a while
Since I could
Hold my head up high
And it's been awhile
Since I said I'm sorry"
~~~~~staind~~~~~
"I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you"
~~~~~hoobastank~~~~~
"we were meant to live for soo much more"
~~~~~switchfoot~~~~~