My Birthday
Ok so its only 7 at night and I've had 42 emails and a bunch of calls from all my friends wishing me a happy birthday! It really made me feel loved and special.. and I'm thankful for all of yall! Of course there is one person I still haven't heard from that I hope remembers but I'm getting myself ready for him not calling. I guess I didn't get my birthday wish after all. But who knows I still have about 5 hours for him to call and let me know he hasn't forgot about it. He shouldn't considering his birthday in in 2 weeks..
Kevin called me from Tenn. today. In fact he was the first to call at 5 am this morning.. of course I let the voice mail get it. But i got my birthday song when i got up.
So I'm still busy as everything and just not really happy with my life. I just feel empty and I don't know what to fill it with yet. I'm questioning everything about my life. I don't know if I'm really doing what i want to do. I mean its just not worth it if I not gonna have someone to share it with and I don't want to have to wait another 10 years before I feel like a meaningful member of society. I'm not letting it stop me though.. I just keep gettin involved with things so maybe I feel that space. I'm gettin really good at fooling people. I'm really good at my "everythings ok smile" I've learned it you laugh and giggle people think everything is great! Anyways I've got to go to my birthday dinner.. Yay!!
Kevin called me from Tenn. today. In fact he was the first to call at 5 am this morning.. of course I let the voice mail get it. But i got my birthday song when i got up.
So I'm still busy as everything and just not really happy with my life. I just feel empty and I don't know what to fill it with yet. I'm questioning everything about my life. I don't know if I'm really doing what i want to do. I mean its just not worth it if I not gonna have someone to share it with and I don't want to have to wait another 10 years before I feel like a meaningful member of society. I'm not letting it stop me though.. I just keep gettin involved with things so maybe I feel that space. I'm gettin really good at fooling people. I'm really good at my "everythings ok smile" I've learned it you laugh and giggle people think everything is great! Anyways I've got to go to my birthday dinner.. Yay!!