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alrite so this is an update to say how my day was shit and how i went all fuckin emo core on your asses so if you dont want to listen to me rant about how i cut and burned then stop reading here!!!!
alrite so i woke up and i got a fone call sayin my lunch appt with my counsler was canceled so my counser decided that she would come and pick me up and talk to me on teh way to skewl so she did n shit and i missed all of 2nd period wich was alrite. then skewl itself was alrite. i totally won i didnt talk to dylan all day and he knew it too he asked sammi why i wouldnt even look at him. see bean i can do it! and then at lunch i saw kat and she asked if i wanted to go to albertsons with her so i said ya so we went an met up with casey and lucian and makenzie and sum other ppl and we smoked and kicked it and had sum good laughs.. and then we went back and yeah i found out i got a B on my project!!! SCORE!!!!! o fuckin yeah that was rad! and then i went to noras after skewl for a bit and we were having an alrite time and then fuckin were talkin to randy and he tells us that elvin is going back out with brittany and we both are like HA NO! and then she calls him and he says HA yes! and we both fuckin start crying! crazy shit i cant believe it so much drama there man.. and then fuckin i get a cal from my mom and my grandma and my dad and alll of them are screamin at me and its makein me all mad and shit and i jsut fuckin star cryin i was really stressted so fuck you shut up! so yeah then i get a ride home and i go in my room and im talkin to shane he tells me that his uncle died and i say sorry cuz thats sad and then i say i am dying cuz i was feeling really blue about the whole elvin thing n shit and he flipis his lid and starts talkin shit like im a fake and that i cut for attention and im depressed for attention and i dont no what real love is and that i have never really been hurt and i dont no wat real pain is and that i lie about EVERYTHING! which really pist me off so im fucin tryin to defend my self and hes going off on me and i doont even no what i did and shit i had already been crying gawd damn i never new i could cry tht long straight! so eyah i call cassie and im like *sob sob* tell him to leavev me alone and i kinda explain it and she says she coming over to plan the party any ways so yeah. i go and cry more and then she comes and we smoke and have a really good talk it felt soo good to talk gawd! and shit gah weel i said a few fucked up things but what shane said to me was unfair and un called for and just MEAN! so yeah well i fuckin screwed up again i promised my self i wouldnt do it againn so fuck shane he had that much of an impact on me i hadnt in a long time well not the burning but yeah i stopped and gawd it was badand i was sooooo sad i didnt no what else to do i wanted to fuckin die he made me feels soo bad i dont hink i am going to go to skewl tomorow i want to cuddle up with my blakets and sleep and not wake up gah im all emo and i was hellacrying so i was blinded by tears so im wearing my readin glasses they are pimp emo glasses so yeah ima go...
alrite so i woke up and i got a fone call sayin my lunch appt with my counsler was canceled so my counser decided that she would come and pick me up and talk to me on teh way to skewl so she did n shit and i missed all of 2nd period wich was alrite. then skewl itself was alrite. i totally won i didnt talk to dylan all day and he knew it too he asked sammi why i wouldnt even look at him. see bean i can do it! and then at lunch i saw kat and she asked if i wanted to go to albertsons with her so i said ya so we went an met up with casey and lucian and makenzie and sum other ppl and we smoked and kicked it and had sum good laughs.. and then we went back and yeah i found out i got a B on my project!!! SCORE!!!!! o fuckin yeah that was rad! and then i went to noras after skewl for a bit and we were having an alrite time and then fuckin were talkin to randy and he tells us that elvin is going back out with brittany and we both are like HA NO! and then she calls him and he says HA yes! and we both fuckin start crying! crazy shit i cant believe it so much drama there man.. and then fuckin i get a cal from my mom and my grandma and my dad and alll of them are screamin at me and its makein me all mad and shit and i jsut fuckin star cryin i was really stressted so fuck you shut up! so yeah then i get a ride home and i go in my room and im talkin to shane he tells me that his uncle died and i say sorry cuz thats sad and then i say i am dying cuz i was feeling really blue about the whole elvin thing n shit and he flipis his lid and starts talkin shit like im a fake and that i cut for attention and im depressed for attention and i dont no what real love is and that i have never really been hurt and i dont no wat real pain is and that i lie about EVERYTHING! which really pist me off so im fucin tryin to defend my self and hes going off on me and i doont even no what i did and shit i had already been crying gawd damn i never new i could cry tht long straight! so eyah i call cassie and im like *sob sob* tell him to leavev me alone and i kinda explain it and she says she coming over to plan the party any ways so yeah. i go and cry more and then she comes and we smoke and have a really good talk it felt soo good to talk gawd! and shit gah weel i said a few fucked up things but what shane said to me was unfair and un called for and just MEAN! so yeah well i fuckin screwed up again i promised my self i wouldnt do it againn so fuck shane he had that much of an impact on me i hadnt in a long time well not the burning but yeah i stopped and gawd it was badand i was sooooo sad i didnt no what else to do i wanted to fuckin die he made me feels soo bad i dont hink i am going to go to skewl tomorow i want to cuddle up with my blakets and sleep and not wake up gah im all emo and i was hellacrying so i was blinded by tears so im wearing my readin glasses they are pimp emo glasses so yeah ima go...