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I had a dream about Carter last night. It was about absolutely nothing. We were just hanging out. I've been thinking about it since I woke up. I've been thinking about the hug she gave me on Saturday. I worked all day at the office and she met me at around 5pm to drive to Nicole's with me. When she got there, she called to let me know (but I heard her coming before I even got the call). I open the door and waited for her and she came and gave me this really great hug. It felt like she was hugging my insides. And the night we had together was just perfect. I had a great time watching the movie with her and a wonderful time talking about it with her after Ryan's house. This a new kind of connection we have. I've enjoyed the summer with her so much.
Last night, I talked to Jason about this. He asked me if I liked the family. He asked if I could hang out with the family without her around. I told her they were great and absolutely I could. I told him that Rick and I are scarily similar. He responded "then that's probably why she likes you so much." I told him DUH and she reminds me of my mom sometimes. Jason was like, "Uh oh! Then you had better get back together with her."
The thing is, we are both so immature. Not immature in the sense of childish, just immature for adults. I think that might be something that we have in common, but it's not necessarily a good thing. She and I need to be grown ups and until then I can't really make judgments on character. I don't know what she's really going to be like as a responsible mother and neither does she know me. I think that is why I would say no to the question I asked myself yesterday. I don't think she knows me well enough to fully appreciate (and disagree with) everything that I am. She has changed so much over the past 3 months though, it scares me to think of not knowing where that would end up.
Last night, I talked to Jason about this. He asked me if I liked the family. He asked if I could hang out with the family without her around. I told her they were great and absolutely I could. I told him that Rick and I are scarily similar. He responded "then that's probably why she likes you so much." I told him DUH and she reminds me of my mom sometimes. Jason was like, "Uh oh! Then you had better get back together with her."
The thing is, we are both so immature. Not immature in the sense of childish, just immature for adults. I think that might be something that we have in common, but it's not necessarily a good thing. She and I need to be grown ups and until then I can't really make judgments on character. I don't know what she's really going to be like as a responsible mother and neither does she know me. I think that is why I would say no to the question I asked myself yesterday. I don't think she knows me well enough to fully appreciate (and disagree with) everything that I am. She has changed so much over the past 3 months though, it scares me to think of not knowing where that would end up.