Odd.
So, I wake up in the best mood. I get to work, and it's like the world just stopped. I felt like the day took for freakin' ever today. I got home, and for some reason, I just cheered right up. Pier 1 went by really fast, and I kept myself busy, so maybe that's why it didn't seem so bad. Maybe I'm just pumped about my birthday tomorrow. They're always so weird. Allow me to explain: My grandfather and I have the same birthday. I'm the first-born grandson......born on grandpa's birthday. THAT'S GOLDEN. You can't top that.
Anyways, he's been sick for the past few years, and each year it gets worse. About a year ago, he was finally diagnosed with lung cancer. So, every passing moment is tense. His health just scares me. So, every year when my birthday comes up, I try to enjoy it the best I can, but in the back of my mind, I know my grandpa is (thankfully) one year older, but still one year closer to the 'grand finale'. It just scares me.
My family isn't really that close. We don't hug, or even say 'I love you'. We don't really celebrate birthday's or any holiday's for that matter. It's just another day to us. I think this is why I tend to be all about the party and the moment and just being about the now. I was brought up thinking that there's nothing special about certain days. Oh well.
I'm turning 26 tomorrow. I guess this is the time that I reflect on what it is that I have/haven't done with my time.
+'s
I've toured. - I have gone out on the road and played music in different states, for people who were into it. It's a great feeling. I've been lucky enough to experience this 3 times. I can't wait for more.
I'm still alive. - After the Angelville accident, things kind of came into perspective for me. It took a while, but it finally happened.
I've made wonderful friends.- I love my friends. Both old and new. At one point or another, they've all been there for me, about something.
I'm employed.- Sadly, or not really, it's still with the same company that it has been for the past 7 years and 4 months. I mean, it's steady, and I've met some great people. Not to mention, I can cook like crazy.
-'s
I have not finished college. - Given, I have every intention to be back in by fall of this year, it's still a little depressing to think I'm still not done. Actually, I haven't even started on my new major yet. Here's to 5 or so years of working on a career.
I'm seem to still be having relationship trouble.- I really don't know what I'm doing wrong. I mean, everyone has their opinions on the matter, and that's fine, but that doesn't mean it makes sense to me. I'm not saying I want to be married right now, but I do want to at some point in my life. Kids too, but no rush. I'm still young and trying to have some fun. I've got a great thing going right now, but at the same time, it kind of scares me, just because it's not really set in stone. I'll be fine though. I like where we stand.
Debt.- I'm sure we can all talk about this. At least my garnishment and my truck payments end this year. July and November, respectively. Ugh, it still sucks though.
My brother and sister.- They live so far away. Well, not really, but it's not convenient to see them. Plus, my brother works, and my sister is just at that age where she hangs out with friends all the time. I wish they lived here, but then again, would I really see them that much more?
Bands- Still having issues with bands. I just want to be in a band with dudes who want to fucking rage and play some good ol' R'N'R....and are down for shows anytime and anywhere. I'm sure I've got that now with the new dudes, but damn, it sure took long enough.
Well, enough about my pity party. Here's to hoping I have a good birthday tomorrow, as does my grandpa.
To all my friends, who might not even read this: You guys are awesome. Thanks for everything.
Here's how I roll:
Anyways, he's been sick for the past few years, and each year it gets worse. About a year ago, he was finally diagnosed with lung cancer. So, every passing moment is tense. His health just scares me. So, every year when my birthday comes up, I try to enjoy it the best I can, but in the back of my mind, I know my grandpa is (thankfully) one year older, but still one year closer to the 'grand finale'. It just scares me.
My family isn't really that close. We don't hug, or even say 'I love you'. We don't really celebrate birthday's or any holiday's for that matter. It's just another day to us. I think this is why I tend to be all about the party and the moment and just being about the now. I was brought up thinking that there's nothing special about certain days. Oh well.
I'm turning 26 tomorrow. I guess this is the time that I reflect on what it is that I have/haven't done with my time.
+'s
I've toured. - I have gone out on the road and played music in different states, for people who were into it. It's a great feeling. I've been lucky enough to experience this 3 times. I can't wait for more.
I'm still alive. - After the Angelville accident, things kind of came into perspective for me. It took a while, but it finally happened.
I've made wonderful friends.- I love my friends. Both old and new. At one point or another, they've all been there for me, about something.
I'm employed.- Sadly, or not really, it's still with the same company that it has been for the past 7 years and 4 months. I mean, it's steady, and I've met some great people. Not to mention, I can cook like crazy.
-'s
I have not finished college. - Given, I have every intention to be back in by fall of this year, it's still a little depressing to think I'm still not done. Actually, I haven't even started on my new major yet. Here's to 5 or so years of working on a career.
I'm seem to still be having relationship trouble.- I really don't know what I'm doing wrong. I mean, everyone has their opinions on the matter, and that's fine, but that doesn't mean it makes sense to me. I'm not saying I want to be married right now, but I do want to at some point in my life. Kids too, but no rush. I'm still young and trying to have some fun. I've got a great thing going right now, but at the same time, it kind of scares me, just because it's not really set in stone. I'll be fine though. I like where we stand.
Debt.- I'm sure we can all talk about this. At least my garnishment and my truck payments end this year. July and November, respectively. Ugh, it still sucks though.
My brother and sister.- They live so far away. Well, not really, but it's not convenient to see them. Plus, my brother works, and my sister is just at that age where she hangs out with friends all the time. I wish they lived here, but then again, would I really see them that much more?
Bands- Still having issues with bands. I just want to be in a band with dudes who want to fucking rage and play some good ol' R'N'R....and are down for shows anytime and anywhere. I'm sure I've got that now with the new dudes, but damn, it sure took long enough.
Well, enough about my pity party. Here's to hoping I have a good birthday tomorrow, as does my grandpa.
To all my friends, who might not even read this: You guys are awesome. Thanks for everything.
Here's how I roll: