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life has been pretty amazing latley. i'm feeling great for once. i'm confident in life and the fact i know things have happened for a reason. and that i know things will be happening very soon. things that are life changing. i'm okay with who i am too. ive finally realized that. and its great to be at good terms with yourself. rather than struggling to be something you're really not. its good to be yourself. but to look back and read some of my past entries even from january, my god i was so messed up. but emotions get the best of you sometimes. and thats basically what happened to me. i cracked and i was an open wound and ANYTHING bad that happened would just kill me. i wont let that happen again. i'm going to try very hard not to. i think ive done really good so far. ive felt great like this for awhile now. ive got so much happening soon that i cant let the little things get in the way of it. i'm also trying my hardest to be a little more sociable. it does help to have friends around here. its nice to get out once and while and feel like a normal teenager, but im kinda different from most. i've got a best friend that lives over 700 miles away that i've never met. not many people can say that. but most people wouldnt want that. but i have it, and im glad i have her in my life. we were talking a few days ago on how it would've been so different if we met earlier. we wouldnt have been as excited or as amazed as we are going to be whenever we meet in the near future. its almost weird to imagine that fact that were GOING to me. that boggles my mind. to meet someone that you care about so much in your life and this would be the first time you've ever seen them in your life. almost four years, damn. we're such awsome best friends. i love our story. we're going to make a movie based on it. i think it'd make a great storyline.
Alot of things will be happening in the next few months. My last dance recital is this summer in june, and right now we are rehearsing for it like crazy. but i love it. my first show was in 1998, i was eight years old i believe. anyways, its kinda crazy to think about it. i mean my last big show with my dance center. that place has been my second home forever. all the girls there, i love them like they're my own sisters. its hard to realize we're all growing up. i think its finally kicking in though, but nothing will prepare us for the last show. our last bow, gah thats so crazy. its so crazy that i was inspired to make a video collage of us. its not even close to all the pictures i have of all of us, so i cut it down to 2005 and on. and even with all that it was 5 minutes. but its really an amazing thing to watch, im very proud of the way it turned out. you guys should check it out: THIS IS OUR LAST BOW i'm listening to paramore right now, my heart. wonderful, amazing song and band. i saw them live on valentines day downtown. it was seriously one of the best concerts ive ever been to. never have i felt so inspired to want music till i saw hayley. maybe i can relate to her alot being that shes about my age and doing what i love. it was so amazing seeing them perform on that stage. i was on the side and not the front of it so i got some pretty awsome pictures of the show. you can also check those out here but if i were to reccommend one show that you need to see, i'd say paramore. they are such great people. especially with their fans. very down to earth and talked to everyone about anything. thats so great to see a band like that. it makes me so happy. i love when bands are like that with their fans. but moving on from that, i got to hang out with chuck yesterday which was awsome. i was there all day. from about 430-1130. but we had the best time. i really feel like we're getting close again which is awsome. im finally getting back to where i want to be with him. we're great friends right now, and i couldnt ask for anything more. hes a great guy and im glad i have him in my life. man so many awsome/funny things happened yesterday. i cant even explain it all, i was just so happy the whole entire time. hanging out with him helps me out so much. but i think ive basically said all i need to, to catch you guys up with whats going on with life. hope you're all doing great as well :]
Alot of things will be happening in the next few months. My last dance recital is this summer in june, and right now we are rehearsing for it like crazy. but i love it. my first show was in 1998, i was eight years old i believe. anyways, its kinda crazy to think about it. i mean my last big show with my dance center. that place has been my second home forever. all the girls there, i love them like they're my own sisters. its hard to realize we're all growing up. i think its finally kicking in though, but nothing will prepare us for the last show. our last bow, gah thats so crazy. its so crazy that i was inspired to make a video collage of us. its not even close to all the pictures i have of all of us, so i cut it down to 2005 and on. and even with all that it was 5 minutes. but its really an amazing thing to watch, im very proud of the way it turned out. you guys should check it out: THIS IS OUR LAST BOW i'm listening to paramore right now, my heart. wonderful, amazing song and band. i saw them live on valentines day downtown. it was seriously one of the best concerts ive ever been to. never have i felt so inspired to want music till i saw hayley. maybe i can relate to her alot being that shes about my age and doing what i love. it was so amazing seeing them perform on that stage. i was on the side and not the front of it so i got some pretty awsome pictures of the show. you can also check those out here but if i were to reccommend one show that you need to see, i'd say paramore. they are such great people. especially with their fans. very down to earth and talked to everyone about anything. thats so great to see a band like that. it makes me so happy. i love when bands are like that with their fans. but moving on from that, i got to hang out with chuck yesterday which was awsome. i was there all day. from about 430-1130. but we had the best time. i really feel like we're getting close again which is awsome. im finally getting back to where i want to be with him. we're great friends right now, and i couldnt ask for anything more. hes a great guy and im glad i have him in my life. man so many awsome/funny things happened yesterday. i cant even explain it all, i was just so happy the whole entire time. hanging out with him helps me out so much. but i think ive basically said all i need to, to catch you guys up with whats going on with life. hope you're all doing great as well :]