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gahhh its kinda awsome going back into your past and rembarking on old memories and things you used to love. for example, these past few weeks ive really gotten back into nsync. its just that band you cant ever stop loving. eight years later i still love them. its true. but i used to put this shield over me before pretending i was all punk or whatever which was so immature and stupid of me. and part of me stopped liking a whole bunch of music, becuase of whatever reason. but now i realize thats complete bull to just not like music because of popularity or whatever. music is music. we all can connect to it in some way and that is the amazing part. music just makes me feel good inside, and its my everything. im so glad i've opened up my music taste now and not locked myself into the punk genre. when in reality i dont like much of that now. i dont know why i ever did before. maybe to impress people, but thats really pathetic. but i was pretty pathetic back then. i'm alot happier with who i am now. i feel okay about things and the way i am. music has always helped me through that. so yes. back to nsync. i randomly felt like listening to them one day and i couldnt stop just there. my mom pulled out the concerts we had on tape and we watched them and i danced. gahhh it was awsome. then the next weekend we went over to our friends house and they have been nsync fans with us since i was about 12. so we all watched old school nsync tapes and it felt so awsome, like i felt so happy. it made me feel young, not that im old or anything. but it felt awsome to experience that all over. dancing in the living room to "bye bye bye" or any other song. i think i've finally gotten over myself and realized i can be who ever i want to be. i shouldnt have to be restricted to a certain label or something. i'm just going to be myself. and i love that.