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I'm going crazy. after my last trip to MA I once again remembered how much I love her and want her in my life forever, as more than just a friend. I just don't know how it would work right now.
I've applying to all of the jobs in MA that fit my career.. just haven't had much luck. but tonight I worked out with my folks the last possible action... moving to MA without a job. of course a lot of it has to do with the girl, and if it doesn't work out I may be a fool for throwing my life in LA away just for her, but then again... if I donm't I'll regret it forever. I think I'm going to leave LA by the second week of january. my goal is to have a job there by january first, but if that doesn't work, I'm going to leave by the second week of january. I just can't be in LA anymore.. and I can't live knwoing that what I want is right there, just abrely unreachable. I need to just go for it. I'm young, I can recover if I need to, but never get the second chance if I miss it.. and I could have already missed it.
why do I love her? I just can't help it. she once told me soemthing about marryinbg someone else but having a different soul mate, and she knew I was her soul mate. I've always and still agree we are soul mates, but we shouldn't live apart. we should have a life together in the best way possible, and it will happen. she is my love, and my life.
I've applying to all of the jobs in MA that fit my career.. just haven't had much luck. but tonight I worked out with my folks the last possible action... moving to MA without a job. of course a lot of it has to do with the girl, and if it doesn't work out I may be a fool for throwing my life in LA away just for her, but then again... if I donm't I'll regret it forever. I think I'm going to leave LA by the second week of january. my goal is to have a job there by january first, but if that doesn't work, I'm going to leave by the second week of january. I just can't be in LA anymore.. and I can't live knwoing that what I want is right there, just abrely unreachable. I need to just go for it. I'm young, I can recover if I need to, but never get the second chance if I miss it.. and I could have already missed it.
why do I love her? I just can't help it. she once told me soemthing about marryinbg someone else but having a different soul mate, and she knew I was her soul mate. I've always and still agree we are soul mates, but we shouldn't live apart. we should have a life together in the best way possible, and it will happen. she is my love, and my life.