rage
every once in a while, usually later at night when im starting to believe the dark brings out the dark in people, i'm struck with a terrible urge.
when i see or hear about the despicable acts of humankind- of torture, rape, genocide... (the list obviously goes on for miles) i am filled with a gnawing, empty feeling; knowing that such things exist in our "civilization" makes me reel with a hot sickness i can't shake. at first, this sick feeling is overwhelming and total, but it gradually gives way to my deeper feeling of overwhelming rage and hatred towards the people commiting these inhumane acts.
i want, bluntly, to end their lives. every one of them. i want to be there, to usher them into whatever hell will await them. i want them to die slowly and terribly, so that they can taste the horrors they commit. i want to exterminate this plague.
it is not my right to play god. it is not my place to decide who lives or dies.
but with the almighty as my witness, were he to grant me the role of Death, to make it my duty to eradicate these abominations, i would take it in a heartbeat.
and by the same token, i pray that day never arrives. the rage steels me against regret, but in the depths of my heart i doubt this wish to play death-- i would rather be able to stop these acts in some other way, protect those wronged-- though i think it would be an easy pill to swallow if the opportunity arose.
when i see or hear about the despicable acts of humankind- of torture, rape, genocide... (the list obviously goes on for miles) i am filled with a gnawing, empty feeling; knowing that such things exist in our "civilization" makes me reel with a hot sickness i can't shake. at first, this sick feeling is overwhelming and total, but it gradually gives way to my deeper feeling of overwhelming rage and hatred towards the people commiting these inhumane acts.
i want, bluntly, to end their lives. every one of them. i want to be there, to usher them into whatever hell will await them. i want them to die slowly and terribly, so that they can taste the horrors they commit. i want to exterminate this plague.
it is not my right to play god. it is not my place to decide who lives or dies.
but with the almighty as my witness, were he to grant me the role of Death, to make it my duty to eradicate these abominations, i would take it in a heartbeat.
and by the same token, i pray that day never arrives. the rage steels me against regret, but in the depths of my heart i doubt this wish to play death-- i would rather be able to stop these acts in some other way, protect those wronged-- though i think it would be an easy pill to swallow if the opportunity arose.