it has not healed with time...
"I come undone at the things he said"
holding to together pretty well today
no one noticed
this is why i should be an actress
i decided this today
lizzie was like
"smile and ill give you gum"
psh...the gum was good tho .hah.
i was so pissed at josh this morning in art
i dunno why
but for some reason i just wanted to kill him
he didnt do anything different then usual
he was just being josh
but when is he not annoying
and today just wasnt a day for it
so then in chorus mr K let us sit down
which was good cuz i needed it
...and no one noticed then...
i was sitting behind the piano
pretending to have fallen asleep
yeah
then english...
was alright
i didnt do much
...gus didnt notice...
then science "Its like you never had love
she played this song and you want me to do without"
and jess found a good quote <3
...and then she didnt notice...
spanish
was good
i was fine
she didnt call on me
and i didnt look at her
and as long as she doesnt look at me
I'm okay with her
i can pretend the bitch isnt there
and then the hall was good on the way to flex
i just didnt feel like talking to anyone
but they talk anyway
mark is moving
dammit.
augh
grr
rawr
and more noises of anger.
not cool at all.
then flex
grr
flex is evil
its pure evil
no jess
alex mason wears far too much axe for one person
and i can smell him from accross the room
not that its bad
i used to enjoy that
it made me sad today
...no one noticed...
i got an alex hug tho
alex hasnt hugged me since he cut his hair
it makes me sad
he gives rly good hugs
then lunch
eh.
whatever.
mr.k...made me sad
cause he came over and was like
"how we doin today katiebob?"
im like
"eh i dunno"
and he was like "its okay you'll find someone"
and for like 5 minutes i had forgotten and he reminded me
...and i was surprised that no one notcied...
and gus and sarah are adorable and i just love them so damn much
math
augh god
just kill me
i hate math
except that there are some good people in my class
andy is my favorite
and me and jess are going to marry him one day
and have a crazy 3 some
jk
but hes the nicest kid i know
...but he didnt notice either...
and math it was bad
b/c mr daigle turned off the lights
and no one could see me
and then social studies
took a quiz...i think i did pretty damn well
"the great depression"
hah.
how coincidental dont you think?
haha that was so stupid and not funny at all
but thats me
:)
you know u love it.
anyways
so yeah we got cupcakes from hilary who is eternally the best
cause its emilys birthday
HAPPY B DAY EMILY!
and it was angelas too
HAPPY B DAY ANGELA!
and me and cathy walked to the media center mouths full lol
to take the quiz
and we could have cheated so bad
but we didnt
lol.
whats up with that.
but hey im a good girl i suppose.
aannndd then...that picture
that i forgot about
fell out
when it was time to leave
and it was on the floor a minute
and i looked at it...
deciding if i should just leave it there
but of course i cant do that
so i picked it up and shuved it back in my binder
and then all i wanted to do was go on the bus and go home
but noooooooooooooo
i had to stay after with patterson
woopdy fucking doo
and we talked about uh...direct object pronouns in espanol? right?
me te le nos les?
"Te gusta la pelicula romantica?"
-"Si! Me gusta la pelicula mucho!"
hell yeah biatch
whos a spanish speakin fool
i no dats right
ahem...sorry
el sombrero on friday
huzzah
except i hate mexican food
and the buses are alphabetical
yuck
fuck that just pile us in u no?
anyways
so my time with senora patterson wasnt too painful i suppose
she talked to senor donato most of the time
hes weird
but hey
and then she frickin walked me down to the front door...hah.
im like dude im not 3!
and then i had ta stay in the media center
and the only person there was jackie..ehhhhhh...anyway
david was there
i think he got his smell back
b/c it smelled like him up there
cinnamon and ciggaretts
haha.
not sure what the cinnamon is but i know his mom smokes
i dunno its an oddly good combination
if you hugged him b 4 his house burned down u no what I'm talking about.
anyways
it was raining alot...
and i REALLY
wanted to stay outside in the rain and just be soaked
i love the rain
so much
its insane
its so
augh
i love it
one day ill kiss someone in the rain
its my life dream
haha
i hate guys that are all..
uptight?
i guess is the word
like who dont want to have fun
most of em are like that
except for a few
when i was little i used to go outside in the rain and take my shoes off and jump in the puddles in front of the door step...which when i think bad is kindof gross b/c thats where my dad would throw his ciggarettes..but i was a kid
and thats the beauty of it
so i got in the car
and my mom had that look like
"jesus are you STILL sad"
and so i used my acting skills
and then she took me to the convenience store
and i got coke
mm
and then
i came home
and i came downstairs
and i tried to talk to you
and you no u saw it
b/c u typed and erased it
and then u put up an away message
hmmmmm
...and there was no one to notice...
"maybe you'll remember me
what I gave is yours to keep"