this cant be happening....
you all know
i cant even
i cant even say
how im feeling right now
I havnt stopped crying since saturday
and its starting to scare me
I seriously cant stop
this hurts so much
i just want to stop thinking all together
I want to forget
because thats never gona happen again
and i need to accept that
but i cant
i dont want all that to be gone
i want him to say I'm beautiful again
and i want him to hug me
and i want him to look at me how he used to
and i want to be sure of everything again
i miss him so much
I'd do anything
i just want him back
i feel like im dreaming...i want to wake up
im losing everything
everyone
and I thought
I thought it would be okay
if david went to AOF
and if mark moved
because i had nick
and nothing else mattered
and now i lost it all
this just doesnt feel right
i messed it all up
i know its my fault
or maybe he likes amber
i dont want to know
no one tell me
i dont want to think about that
but i dont get it
it was so
...amazing
it was perfect
i was so happy
what happend?
"i was crying then...i never did stop crying"