wow i am the stupidest person any of you have ever met

[blame_the_sex]

i am stupid, crazy in love with a boy who has told me he will never love me again.

i drink too much

i smoke way too much pot

i don't really go to my classes which is dumb.

i don't think i'll ever get a real job in life.

i miss him so much i think i might just die from the pain in my chest.

he says he loves me still.

he said he never wants to be with me again.

i cry alot.

i drink when im alone

i'm a pathetic waste of air.

i'm too down on myself.

i don't have anyone to call at 2 AM when i think i'm gonna end it all.

i really don't have anyone anymore.

i mean i have tons of friends but no one to call, no one to love.

i'm lost in my head in this big, big world.

i am heartbroken.