"And baby, you know I'll be by your side, not a moment too soon...."
Lately I've been spending nearly all my free time with Amber and Jonathan.
Dead Man's Waltz shows
Ring of Fire
Silly children's movies
Shitty cream ale
Government conspiracy conversations
St. Auggie
Tell me that isn't cool.
They finally left for Fort Lauderdale last night,
sooner than I expected.
I don't think it's quite hit me yet.
Yes, I cried my eyes out. Yes, I'm hurt and lonely.
But I feel like I'm still waiting for their phone call, inviting me over, that I won't be getting anymore.
It's strange to have that missing.
I have mixed emotions about the whole thing.
I hate that I finally started hanging out with them, after hardly seeing them for the year they were here, and NOW they have to go back home. It hurts to know that they won't be 5 miles down the road, to visit whenever I like.
But I'm grateful that I did finally get to spend some time with them, as short as it was
To learn that Jon really is a great guy, and not some controlling asshole,
To realize that even after being apart for three years, Amber and I are still just as close as we were in 10th grade.
I don't know.
Maybe I'm just finally learning how to handle bad news.
I just love those kids. I've loved every moment I've had with them.
I feel like the past two months have been an escape from reality, and now it's time to get back to life.
IN ANY CASE..........
Work's been good.
Family's struggling, but we have occasional days and dinners together that prove that we all still love each other, so I guess that's a good thing.
Baby Girl is coming home Friday. Apparently, it's taking longer to sell the house than her mom had hoped, which is keeping them in Jacksonville. VERY good news.
I've got an exciting new crush, and despite all the shit I get about what a huge mistake I'm making, it feels good to have him around. It's silly and giddy and not a big deal and very refreshing.
I'm concerned about that certain strange friend of mine. Which is probably a complete waste of thought and energy, considering he'd contact me if he needed or wanted me around at all, and he's not the type to need or want anyone around, really. Still, I worry, and I don't know why.
I'm having a few fucked up setbacks with registering for school. Hopefully it'll all get straightened out in time for this term, fingers crossed.
Still loving life.
I've got every weekend between now and September 17th planned out, and they each get better as the time goes on.
Anticipating fall, and all the lovely things the season always brings me.
Change change change.
I love everyone, I miss everyone, life is good, that's all.
"...... and if I'm not right there by your side,
I'm howling at the mooooooooonnnnnnnnn!!!!!!"
Dead Man's Waltz shows
Ring of Fire
Silly children's movies
Shitty cream ale
Government conspiracy conversations
St. Auggie
Tell me that isn't cool.
They finally left for Fort Lauderdale last night,
sooner than I expected.
I don't think it's quite hit me yet.
Yes, I cried my eyes out. Yes, I'm hurt and lonely.
But I feel like I'm still waiting for their phone call, inviting me over, that I won't be getting anymore.
It's strange to have that missing.
I have mixed emotions about the whole thing.
I hate that I finally started hanging out with them, after hardly seeing them for the year they were here, and NOW they have to go back home. It hurts to know that they won't be 5 miles down the road, to visit whenever I like.
But I'm grateful that I did finally get to spend some time with them, as short as it was
To learn that Jon really is a great guy, and not some controlling asshole,
To realize that even after being apart for three years, Amber and I are still just as close as we were in 10th grade.
I don't know.
Maybe I'm just finally learning how to handle bad news.
I just love those kids. I've loved every moment I've had with them.
I feel like the past two months have been an escape from reality, and now it's time to get back to life.
IN ANY CASE..........
Work's been good.
Family's struggling, but we have occasional days and dinners together that prove that we all still love each other, so I guess that's a good thing.
Baby Girl is coming home Friday. Apparently, it's taking longer to sell the house than her mom had hoped, which is keeping them in Jacksonville. VERY good news.
I've got an exciting new crush, and despite all the shit I get about what a huge mistake I'm making, it feels good to have him around. It's silly and giddy and not a big deal and very refreshing.
I'm concerned about that certain strange friend of mine. Which is probably a complete waste of thought and energy, considering he'd contact me if he needed or wanted me around at all, and he's not the type to need or want anyone around, really. Still, I worry, and I don't know why.
I'm having a few fucked up setbacks with registering for school. Hopefully it'll all get straightened out in time for this term, fingers crossed.
Still loving life.
I've got every weekend between now and September 17th planned out, and they each get better as the time goes on.
Anticipating fall, and all the lovely things the season always brings me.
Change change change.
I love everyone, I miss everyone, life is good, that's all.
"...... and if I'm not right there by your side,
I'm howling at the mooooooooonnnnnnnnn!!!!!!"