Lonliness, school, scholarships, family, money, people
I really wish I had some friends I could hang out with. I am very lonely and bored. There are some (very few!!!!) people that I do hang out with, but I can't anymore, because I live in the boonies, and i just can't hang out with them. . . I am ready to move though. . . I want to move out, but I don't have a car or license. . . and I am moving away for college in a year, so it is kidna pointless, but then again, if I don't move, I have to stay here. . . with *them*, grrrrrrrrr. Plus, my mom is aggravating the shi* out of me, as is my brother, over our stupid settlement. . . I am suppose to get more than them, and they are trying to spend my money for me. . . on them. . or it atleast seems that way. . . then my mum tries to make me feel guilty for not giving her any money, but she already owes me a lot, and we haven't even gotten the money yet, we only know what the lawyers are asking for. . . have I said any of this before? oh well. . . but yeah, I wan't to go away to college so bad, and more importantly, I want to be able to hang with friends, I have never really hung out with anyone. . I want to soo bad. Do I sound desparate? I hope not. Anyways, I wish i could visit lots of places right now, without my family, but just friends. . . i want to go to Mexico so bad now. . . and Canada, and Europe, Australia, Taiwan, Everest, (although it is a high mountain,) Tibet, Thailand, China, Japan, etc. . . I want to move around a lot!!! I guess I got used to it, which explains the lack of friends, or atleast partially does. But yeah, I'm kind of addicted to myspace now, because I have nothing better to do. . . is that sad? I like the ppl I meet, or most of them atleast. My neck hurts. . . and I need/want a job, but need a license first, and then a car. . . if I get one. I want to go to school in London, England soooo bad. . . or California, or New York, or Hawai'i, or maybe Florida. . . anywhere but here. But I still have to apply, or am going to atleast, apply to colleges/universities here so that I can have safety schools, or atleast have some school I know I can get into. . . and I really need to get scholarships. I am going to start researching scholarships tomorrow, if I am able to get some for the 2006-2007 school year, I don't need one for the 2005-2006 school year, because I was able to keep my scholarship at the school. I hope I can go though. I hope. . . and wish. . . and want to. . . and will!!!!!!. . . and my friend got offline a while ago, and I am bored, and sad, and lonely again. . . ppl got on, but I don't really know them, one is a myspace girl, another is a girl i know, but don't hang out with, so now I have no one to talk with, expect ppl that I don't really know, and who seem like they don't want to talk to me. . . hope not, but I don't know. But he got off early, and got on late. . . hope he is okay though. . . he is having some trouble with things. . . hope he gets better. . .
Andrew
Andrew