Feb 02, 2010 14:34
Like this month needed to suck any worse than it already did?
My grampa died in his sleep last night. My sis called me at work and my boss let me take off early...
And I just don't even know what to do with myself. I don't think that there will be a visitation, and there wont' be a funeral/memorial service until gram and grampa's anniversary May 5 (he's being cremated and then interred at one of the veteran's cemetaries).... and so my sis and I don't know even what to do? what is appropriate in this situation?
I guess my gram is handling it fine... and he's been so sick for so long, it's not a shock, and in some ways a blessing.
I just regret how it was between us the past few years... When his dementia got bad, I just had to separate myself from him because I didn't think I could handle it, and there were times where I had to play the bad guy in order to keep him and others safe...
This new year just has not been kind. We started the year with my aunt's old mare, China Girl, passing away. Then I lost puck. My sister's little foster dog had only recently found her forever home and then had to be put down due to renal failure, mom's kitty, Steve, was diagnosed with cancer yesterday evening, and now my grandpa died.